Monthly Archives: December 2007

Still Around…

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Date: December 4, 2007

There are some very sound reasons for not allowing ourselves, as online child lovers, to run off into fifty different directions all at once…especially if we are involved in pro child love advocacy.

I’m most directly reminded of two, recently silenced people, who were loud voices in our community, only a year ago.

Lindsay Ashford and Rookie…

I say none of this in contempt, condemnation or disrespect, and I cannot stress this strongly enough. I have nothing but respect, for the initiatives they have undertaken, and what they accomplished.

These two have guts…and determination…

But you know what?…

People who go charging into the enemy alone, without really covering their own vulnerabilities, and pushing themselves as though they can “do it all”…

…Those are the people who “go down in a blaze of glory”…though, all to often, there is no glory in what happens to them, and they are just left defeated…often under the manipulation of enemies.

…Mainly because, they played an indispensable role in their own defeat.

I was talking about the Neptune directory just below…and how sad that a resource that’s been around all these years is suddenly gone…

Why is it gone?…Because, it was Lindsay’s resource…and Lindsay, alone, spent the last several years, with a web site where he outs himself, is getting onto television news shows, is interviewing with other media…all the while, doing things like posting pictures on his web site of, and talking about the children of Barack Obama…a current, U.S. presidential candidate and U.S. Senator…along with at least one other tendency, which was probably not so wise.

Where did it get Lindsay, or anybody else?…

…Well, Lindsay is gone from the scene…and the rest of us are left with one less, really good resource online…The internet has become more silent…

People need to learn, to cover their own behinds…and stop doing things, which they know are suicidal.

You don’t need to be a superman…You need to pick an area you are good at, and work from that base.

It seems Rookie shot himself in the foot…

Never, ever mix your real identity, with anything you use for online advocacy like this…

I can not say that enough…especially now, after yet other things have happened, and I learn that even some of the wise and trusted friends I respect, kept blatant connections to somebody, who is now in prison…on serious (though quite possibly trumped up) charges…and they’re now paranoid…wishing they had not…

Look…I don’t know where all the “heavy hitters” rank somebody like me, in the bigger picture of pro child love advocacy…

But I will say one thing…

The world knows me as “Steve Diamond”, or several other pseudonyms…but they don’t know the name on my birth certificate…

I’ve been around for nearly a decade, online…and there are reasons for this. Maybe I am more reserved and reluctant than your average person…but, I’ve always taken personal security and risk very seriously.

Perhaps this has held me back from being able to meet all the people I’d have liked to meet, and do all the things I wanted to do…

…but, I am still here…I am still writing and expressing myself…I am a consistent presence, even after all of this time.

In comparison to burning yourself out, or just sabotaging yourself…what am I saying…there is no comparison

Sometimes, you just have to take the less glamorous, and seemingly weaker course of action…accept the ridicule and diminished appearance of credibility, for “not having the balls” to put your real face onto your own words…

…in order to be able to stick to doing what you do best, and remain a fighter in this war at all.

There are a lot of people, just starving to tear clean through this bastard of an injustice…

To many people (good people), who should still be active and viable today, rushed ahead ill prepared…and without that all important personal temperament…

This is not a boxing match…It is chess…

Nobody may know my name and even my pseudonyms may be forgotten, and I may get no glory…but there is a lot to be said, for the duration and quality of my advocacy…

We need voices that consistently remain clearly heard…Those are the true foundation of this movement.

I am sorry that Lindsay and Rookie are silenced…I really am…but I hope the rest of us can learn something from their experiences.

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The Loss of Neptune Directory…

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Date: December 4, 2007

While I can not blame Lindsay for his ultimate decision, I do have to say that the loss of the Neptune Directory is very, very sad. This was one of the best, child love links resources on the internet….

I was very honestly saddened, when I tried to find this site so that I could place a link to it in the EQF Links page, but ended up finding this

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RockBot 5000: The Genesis…

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TEF002_RockBot 5000 - The Genesis

Date: December 03, 2007

I thought I’d just take a brief moment in time, to give a little history surrounding “Rocky”…My side kick personality around here…who happens to be my computer…

Many parts of what you are going to see going up here, at the EQ. Foundation, are bits and pieces of multiple projects. Rocky is one of the more interesting projects, which never saw the light of day…until now.

Some of my old sites and pages have gone through substantial changes, and been refocused towards serving a different purpose…as more will…That is why the “RockBot 5000” is now here, as part of the EQF.

“Rocky” is informally short for “RockBot 5000″…

A few years ago, it was my intention to open an account with live365.com, and start producing a regular, pre-recorded radio show entitled, “The RockBot 5000 Show”. It would have centered around classic rock, metal and some pop. Rocky was going to be the host.

I even half recorded a few shows…and did a show or two, with both myself and Rocky…even going so far as to “hold a conversation”, between “the two of us”…Actually pulling something like that off, is a work of art (and no…I’m not implying I pulled it off, all that well).

Well, with all the politics and squabbling going on, surrounding high rate increases, for the right to use commercial music…it eventually soured me on the idea of going forward with this.

To me, it just seems like the high power record companies, and larger media companies should quit trying to muscle us smaller people out of the scene. Heck, most of us are not even in it to make money, we will never have more than a small audience…and good grief…for so many of us, it is just a hobby amongst music lovers…not so evil, really…

…but, I digress…

I am not made of money, and have to watch my income and outflow closely…plus, doing a regular show is a commitment…something I am still not sure I am up to, at present.

Anyway, the whole “radio show” idea went through several changes…I even redesigned my old web page, and recorded a show or two using it’s title, “Steve-D’s Midnight Zone”…which came off pretty cool, to be entirely honest…

Naturally, after I opted not to go with Live365, I started to privately flirt with the idea of recording shows and offering them to one, or both, of the existing online boylove radio stations…Then there was an abrupt exodus from Sure Quality Radio…which I had no insiders information about, but made me pause and think to myself…”Something is going on there, and it is probably not good”…So, I just sort of sat on the fence…and then, two of the main BLs left at SQR, went to jail…

…Wonderful…and then the paranoia slipped back in, as to who could be trusted to just do the work of running this type of resource, and not compromise the security of everybody who got involved with it…

…and BoyTalk Radio…well…they are there for music performed by boys…So, I never quite knew if I even should offer, or not…

As things stand, I’m not really interested in pursuing that project…but, maybe later on…Right now, my life is turbulent, and I need to make some serious changes…Get myself out of where I am currently at. So, this isn’t even much on my mind, anymore.

But, anyway…I just thought I’d “introduce” you to Rocky, by giving you a brief history behind “him”.

All the best…
Steve Diamond

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