In Life And Fiction, Edward St. Aubyn Sheds The Weight Of His Past…


Date: May 21, 2014

…BoyChat Post…

…Fresh Air: In Life And Fiction, Edward St. Aubyn Sheds The Weight Of His Past [MP3 Download]…

“The writer is best known for his semi-autobiographical novels about an Englishman from a posh but monstrous family. St. Aubyn’s new book marks a departure.”

About ten minutes in, we get to the point where they first mention how Edward St. Aubyn’s father allegedly raped him several times, starting at the age of five…and it gets quickly moved past…

They don’t get into any real detail, until around 16:30…

Edward claims to have written a fictional novel, wherein one of the characters experiences what he did as a boy…making this novel semi-biographical.

An interesting question comes up, regarding how sadistic and deranged a father can be to do that to a son.

…He imagines his father had so much spare pain, he had to get rid of it in other people…

Apparently, this is a legitimate case of rape…and it’s being summed up as homosexual, pedophilia incest…

About 20 minutes in…”I think that the people who behave in ways which are very destructive, immoral and which they know to be wrong, search for whatever excuses, pretexts…umm…and lies available to them. And someone like [the fictional character in his book] will naturally choose to regard the disapproval that most people would feel about what he does, as middle class prudery. That’s the defense available to him. Other people would use other defenses, other explanations…you know, character formation or ancient Greece, or, you know, whatever…you know, or imagine that their victims are really enjoying it…Or, people tell themselves the craziest stories.” – Edward

“Instead of feeling shame and horror at his own actions, [the fictional character] seems to be wishing that he could talk about it with somebody, share the experience.”

Edward goes on to talk about his own experience…his own isolation by this…a suicide attempt [which he later admits was not sincerely intended to end his life]…

…Edwards father had just died, when he decided to come out to the world with this revelation…

He talks about the inner “civil war”, of both identifying with what about his father made him who he is [I’m guessing the good things and connections], and the part of his father that tormented him…and of no longer having an external target, to direct the hate towards…and other things get said, also.

Honestly…I don’t know how I feel, about someone writing a semi-fictional novel like this…I mean, given the saturation of negative pedophile stereotypes we are forced to relentlessly endure…I’m not too excited about, “Oh, hey…here is another!”…I feel, the overwhelming and inescapable nature of this content, and the social atmosphere it creates, is outright abusive and dehumanizing, against people like us…So I am well outside the point, where I even find this kind of account to be constructive…or of interest to delve into…

…It is a “been there, done that [too many times over]” kind of thing…It feels like the same old dead horse…and it’s time for a new start, and a new narrative…So, I’ve had growing distaste and lack of patience, with this type of content…

…But, apparently…it is his story…and if there is one thing I respect…it is a writer using writing, in order to work through his own issues.

Even though I know life is complicated…I cannot help but feel…if Edward was going to reveal all of this…I am conflicted over whether it was wrong of him, to wait till the man he accuses can no longer answer his charges…or whether it was an act of mercy, allowing the man he accuses to slip beyond the reach of punishment…

…Another question that went through my mind, is essentially the same one I was thinking when Corey Feldman told the world, he knew who was abusing young people, but he was not personally going to stop it…

…Okay…so, you knew from personal experience that this happened…you knew what this person was prone to do…and yet, you allow them to go free and potentially assault others?…

I know people can be deeply traumatized by brutality…and I know a lot of victims of this sort of thing don’t want to come out about it…I just wonder how they deal with knowing, that their inaction may have gotten somebody else brutalized.

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