Date: June 03, 2014
Summary: Anonymous poster claims to have been placed on antidepresents, and after two weeks lost all attraction to boys, having said attractions replaced by attraction to adults.
Having gone through several decades of BL life…
…I can attest to the fact, that sexual phases are something which most of us go through.
When I was about 22 years old…I experienced this very dark, detached and hazy time in my life [which I believe was connected to my service in the gulf war of 1991]. I could barely stay awake…I could not concentrate, or retain information for more than a matter of seconds [which decimated the hell, out of my college aspirations]…and I also had this peculiar thing going on…I could not become sexually aroused, at all.
Mind you…just a few years earlier, I was at my sexual peak as a male…and then, suddenly, I could no longer get an erection…and I effectively had no sexual desire…As this went on, I spent a ton of time sleeping and everything was a blur, so it didn’t occur to me just how much time had passed…
…But then at some point, I realized it had been upwards of a year, since I had even experienced any sort of sexual stimulation…and it really started to bother me, not knowing what was going on.
My doctor dismissed it…saying this sort of thing was normal, for males leaving that phase of their life [getting past their sexual peak]…but I never believed, that a total loss of ones sex drive at age 22, is at all normal…and I don’t believe they honestly understood the extent of what I was experiencing…It just was not there, at all…and would not return for…probably a year and a half…a couple of years…and then, it only slowly came back.
You know how it is, that I know I am a BoyLover?…
…Even after this extended absence from sexual stimulation…as things returned, my attractions were the same as they were before.
Now…I have never returned to how I was prior to that event in my life…though I have rebounded somewhat…I do have anomalous periods, where I can be almost like I was at eighteen, and be very sexually aroused multiple times over, over the span of a week…but those are very rare…
…More common, is for me to go for windows of time…a month…month and a half…two months…without having any personal need to attend to my sexual needs…
One point in all of this sharing…is that two weeks is no time at all…It is not something on which to base any judgment, whether you are “changed” or not.
Another point, is that we go through a lot of things in life…some deeply impacting, some not so much…It is important not to hang such a heavy reliance upon these things. Maybe they effect us…Maybe they don’t…Maybe their effect is temporary, or short lived.
A last point…is that we can have tendencies to fool ourselves, when something in our lives has changed…and that change of balance has caused us to become more distant, from the reality of who we are.
I’ve had extended periods in my life [including during my current life, today]…where sexual attraction to boys was literally absent from my life. Does this mean that I have ever not been a BoyLover?…I would say no, it does not mean that at all.
It means I am a BoyLover with a very low sex drive.