Monthly Archives: October 2014

Understanding (Narrated)…


Date: October 27, 2014

This selection from “In Self Defense: The Life and Times of An Atheist BoyLover…Memoirs and Ethos”, has been narrated by Rocco White. Please enjoy the listen, or read along if you like…or need to.

It says so much about a person, whether or not they strive to understand those opposed to them.



For Posterity (Narrated)…


Date: October 27, 2014

This selection from “In Self Defense: The Life and Times of An Atheist BoyLover…Memoirs and Ethos”, has been narrated by Rocco White. Please enjoy the listen, or read along if you like…or need to.

A lot, if not entirely everything I share here, is also motivated by a will to preserve it for posterity…that is, all future generations.

I know it wont be seen by the majority…but these are the types of things, ideas, struggles and effects, which I think are deeply important enough…that future generations should learn from them, in order to avoid our generations failures.

When I speak of the importance of recording our own plight and existence for posterity…it is not that I think myself an especially gifted or superior voice to do such…It is that I understand, if we do not do this for ourselves, then it will not be done. We are worth more than that…We do not deserve being forgotten, with the passing of time.

Even we outcasts have a wealth of knowledge and wisdom to pass on…And our legacy must endure.



Ring of Fire 10/19/2014 (FULL EPISODE)…

Date: October 22, 2014

…Ring of Fire 10/19/2014 (FULL EPISODE)…

“Published on Oct 20, 2014
00:39 – “Republican Budget Cuts Are Breeding Corruption.” Michael Burg explains how austerity measures are leading to an increase in the amount of government waste and corporate fraud. #AusterityFraud

10:36 – “Shifting Costs To The Sick.” Howard Nations talks about the new way that insurance companies are trying to fleece consumers with higher fees. #Insurance

19:57 – “The Ticking Time Bombs on Our Highways.” David Haynes will tell us why most vehicle recalls go unheeded by consumers, dealerships, and even the government. #RecallDangers

29:20 – “The Forgotten Victims Of The Recession.” Joshua Holland, senior digital producer for in New York City, will tell us about the mental anguish that was caused by the Great Recession. #RecessionVictims

37:58 – “Are American Doctors Too Greedy?” Dr. Tom Schneider, author of A Physician’s Apology, talks about the rampant greed that has become a staple of the medical profession. #PrescriptionForGreed

46:35 – “How Florida Elected A Criminal Governor.” Farron Cousins, executive editor of The Trial Lawyer Magazine, explains how the state of Florida managed to elect a fraud-riddled candidate as governor. #RickScottFraud”

On Being: Hopes and Dreams in a World of Fear…

Date: October 16, 2014

…On Being:Hopes and Dreams in a World of Fear…

“For over a decade, the French-American anthropologist Scott Atran has been listening to the hopes and dreams of young people from Indonesia to Egypt. He explores the human dynamics of what we analyze as “breeding grounds for terrorism” — why some young people become susceptible to them and others, in the same circumstances, do not. His work sheds helpful light on the question on so many of our minds as we watch horrific news of the day: How could this happen — and how could we possibly help transform it?”

Kinsey Confidential: My Brother Had Sex With Me When I Was Small. Am I A Virgin?…

Date: October 21, 2014

…Kinsey Confidential…

…Kinsey Confidential…

“Yes, you are still a virgin. Even if your brother or any other older boy or adult penetrated you when you were a child, you are still a virgin.”

“Not everyone who was molested or abused as a child has bad feelings about it. Some people feel like they were too young to understand. Some people feel like it was something wrong that the other person did but that fortunately they were not harmed by it. And if you don’t have those bad feelings, that is okay too.”

“Research is clear that children who have had sexual contact with much older kids or with adults have a very wide range of reactions to those experiences.”

I will give Dr. Debby Herbenick props, for acknowledging in a public manner, that just because you had sex as a child or minor, does not mean that you have to feel bad about the experience, or hate the person you had sex with, or feel like you have been injured in any way.

…Of course, there is the obligatory stuff, about it all having been a crime…and links, incase they want to seek therapy…

…But it takes some backbone, to acknowledge that a child [or minor] may very well have not been hurt by the experience [though she fails to acknowledge, that a child can quite enjoy the experience].

Of course…there is no reason to believe that a child [or minor] has been impacted negatively, by simple fact that a sex act occurred.

…That type of absolutist thinking is nothing more than a social construct, thrust upon us by the sex abuse industry.

I do have to say one other thing…and that is, I’m conflicted over her answer about virginity.

…I mean…there is physical virginity…and psychological virginity…Or should I just say, virginity has more than one facet to it?

If we are going by legal definition, and invalidating sex acts because consent could not be legally given…I think that is a bogus standard.

If there was physical sex, but we are still going to claim that virginity is still intact…how are we splitting this hair?…Are we implying, that because the sex might not have been in a manner of his own nature, that it does not count?…Are we saying that he has to be with a girl, in order to lose his sexual virginity [presuming he is heterosexual]? Does this also disqualify normal, homosexual experimentation as kids?

See…physical, sexual virginity, has to do with whether or not you have engaged in the act…And if you have gone there and experienced that…then you’re really not a virgin, anymore.

If they had no choice in the matter…I can understand why they may feel entitled to psychological virginity.

…I just don’t see where the good doctor is finding her justification…unless she is presuming they are having outercourse [sex without penetration], or it was strictly oral sex…and “oral sex doesn’t count”…

…But then, according to her own answer, someone could have even had anal sex with him…and this “would not count”.

I don’t like things being forced on people, either…but at some point, you have to stop being politically correct, and objectively recognize reality.

I think she is wrong, regarding this…and demonstrably so.

All the same…she is entitled to her opinion.

Album: Ride The Dragon…


Date: October 20, 2014

01) Beauty and the Beast [brass]

02) Jam01

03) Brass Dance

04) Paphian Tyro

05) Play With Me

06) Rock On

07) BXI [church organ]

Ride The Dragon, my third album, has a run time that comes in a little under 17 minutes, at sixteen minutes an fifty six seconds. Short, but there are some nice things in this collection.

Beauty and the Beast [brass] – Very nice version of a great song. New release!

Jam01 – Glorified bumper music…but really cool.

Brass Dance – Nice compilation. New release!

Paphian Tyro – This one is cool. I released it earlier, on this blog.

Play With Me – Great jam. An early track of mine. It’s been out there for some time.

Rock On – More glorified bumper music…but really cool.

BXI [church organ] – A favorite. I love church organ music, which is why these kinds of recordings show up in my music. I believe this is the debut of BXI. New release!



Fresh Air: One Lawyer’s Fight For Young Blacks And ‘Just Mercy’…

Date: October 20, 2014

…One Lawyer’s Fight For Young Blacks And ‘Just Mercy’…

“Bryan Stevenson takes on cases to exonerate people wrongfully convicted. “One of the things that pains me is we have so tragically underestimated the trauma, the hardship we create in this country when we treat people unfairly, when we incarcerate them unfairly, when we condemn them unfairly,” he says.”

“[It] just reinforced what I had known all along, which is that we have a criminal justice system that treats you better if you’re rich and guilty than if you’re poor and innocent,” Stevenson tells Fresh Air’s Terry Gross.”

“Stevenson is a Harvard Law School graduate and has argued six cases before the Supreme Court. He won a ruling holding that it is unconstitutional to sentence children to life without parole if they are 17 or younger and have not committed murder.”

“His clients are people on death row — abused and neglected children who were prosecuted as adults and placed in adult prisons where they were beaten and sexually abused, and mentally disabled people whose illnesses helped land them in prison where their special needs were unmet.”

The more I look…the more convinced I become, that the biggest villain of them all…is the system…

At one point, Bryan talks about going to meet with a fourteen year old boy…and having to console him as he broke down and cried for an hour…He was held and charged, because he shot and killed the man who beat his mother unconscious [potentially killing her]…and for this he spent his institutionalized time being repeatedly gang raped, by more inmates than he could recall…

Who is responsible for this?…I agree with Bryan, that we all are responsible to bring an end to this…but the guilt for this belongs to the system, and to those running it…and those responsible for the system.

When is there going to be any amount of accountability, for those who take young kids and subject them to this?

That is not part of “paying your debt to society”…It is insidious torture.

…There is no such thing as a person who you can throw away to the system, wash your hands of, and forget that they ever existed.

…Yet we find that some people, even kids, are treated just like that.

The true criminals here, are those running and controlling the system.

Well…I’ve spoken my piece, with regards to what really hit me hardest in this interview…The whole thing is worth listening to…It’s mostly about people on death row, and corruption in the “justice system”…But it touches on kids who’ve been sentenced to life without parole, sentenced to die in prison.

…It is easy to see why vulnerable and outcast groups get a raw deal from the “justice system”, when these sorts of things [and the people behind them] are allowed to achieve controlling power within the “justice system”.

Expanding on Frolander…


Date: October 19, 2014

…BoyChat Response…

…BoyChat Response…

With regards to Sandusky, the degree to which that got dragged on started to make even me ill…In my opinion, he did get an unjust amount of leniency [on BoyChat]…but I also relent, that this was a backlash behavior…because we don’t get treated fairly by the media.

Frolander…much, much different case and issue…I mean, worlds apart…

…Personally, I was down right infuriated by this case…and here is why…

The nature of Frolander’s behavior isn’t really even part of the issue…though to be clear, later reports make it sound to be of a mild and consensual manner.

The outrage stems from the fact that whatever Frolander was doing, it was abruptly brought to an end…However Browning continued to savagely pummel him into unconsciousness…after which, he went to the kitchen to get a knife for the purpose of murdering Frolander…Browning’s own son had to stand in the way, and stop him from murdering the defenseless Frolander.

In addition to this, Browning even stopped to photograph an unconscious, bloody Frolander, and send it with bragging text messages to his friends, all during the assault and attempted murder…

…And the cops are satisfied, to let all of this pass without prosecuting Browning…a violent man with a dangerous, criminal past.

This type of case puts a crystal clear focus, on the ugly face of social hate against Child Lovers, or anyone with sexual inclinations involving children [and often teens]…It puts on display, just why we are in a social state of emergency, as Child Lovers or Teen Lovers.

This case makes pretty starkly clear…if you are a CL or TL and you get caught in a compromised position…then in some states of the so called “land of the free”, you are placed outside of legal protections of the law [which most people think apply to everyone]…pretty much left on par, with a dog or livestock owned by someone.

If you have a dog you no longer want…legally [though not always ethically], you can take them “out back” and put a bullet in their head…

…The dangerous, alarming precedent in not prosecuting Browning…is that it puts people with our sexual orientations on par with that dog, in terms of legal rights and protections.

…It also shows how little society thinks of us…as well as how violent and threatening the manner.

…Frolander was stripped of his humanity, and treated as if he were a rabid [or unwanted] animal…who can be savaged and killed, at the leisure of some sociopath, who is exploiting the finer points of some incredibly messed up law.

Frolander was left like a toy, to this guys nonexistent sense of mercy [and human empathy]…Browning’s inhumane cruelty was the result…And few people thought there was anything there, to get concerned over?…

…Therein exists the problem.

It does not matter what Frolander did…I mean, I could theorize something extreme [ie: Frolander strangling the boy], and say a physically violent response was justified…But nothing justifies what happened in the aftermath, while Frolander was fully incapacitated.

If you are a CL or TL…and what happened to Frolander in those moments does not infuriate you to your very core…then there is something wrong with you, as a human being.

If Frolander had been murdered…would Browning have even been prosecuted then?…Not likely.

There is so much, which is absolutely unacceptable in this state of matters.

I cant say Frolander has done nothing, for which intervention or even prison time might be justice…But that says nothing, to the rightness or wrongness of what is happening to the rights and protections of CLs and TLs.

According to this case…any violent, criminal sociopath can stand as judge, jury and executioner over you, so long as you are a big enough pervert, and unfortunate enough to be in the wrong legal jurisdiction.

There is no way possible, to argue around this to the point…where it somehow becomes ethical or right…It is “justice system” anarchy…a total breakdown, of accountability…and a sidestep of individuals rights and protections.

…How dare anyone write a law, which allows this type of atrocity?

It is important not to confuse what was, for I think most of us, causing the anger and outrage regarding the Frolander case.

This was about the vile injustices committed against Frolander, along with the legal and social apathy towards it…and what this means, as relates to any CL or TL.


Old Cunundrum…

Date: October 18, 2014

…To what extent does [BoyChat] influence or encourage some to take daft risks?…

…To what extent does [BoyChat] influence or encourage some to take daft risks?…

Old Cunundrum…

…But let me offer a thought, or two.

Note: I realize what follows may seem a bit wide reaching [rape, murder, etc.], in the face of your original post…but your post reminded me of someone who went by the name “p=[chad]”…and if you know about their case, then you can understand the context, and why I went in this direction. I got tired of writing, before I got around to mentioning this person specifically. For the record, I’m not entirely referencing this person, as I maintained a far distance from him, and hence harbor no personal sense of guilt in the mess he created…He creeped me out…Anyone with half a lick of common sense, knew something bad was in his future…and that he was inevitably going to take others down with him…But even saying all of this, I think very few of us would have expected him to do what he did. Should there have been more critical response given to p=[chad]?…Probably…But there are some people in this world, who you cant tell anything too…They’ve already got this idea and direction in their head…If you don’t support it, well…you are nobody to them. He was a train wreck waiting to happen, but you could have only known this in your gut, unless you were one of his close friends who knew what he was up too…There was no practical way, for most people to intervene…Heck, he concealed it so well, that there was no obvious reason to ban him from these resources, though I know he would have been, had we known what he was up too.

Most things and people are outside our sphere of control…sometimes, even that of our influence…Sometimes, they will do bad things…

…And sometimes, those people will arrive here and intermingle with us socially…Sometimes, it will be of a friendly and warm nature…

…What is our culpability, in holding conversation with them?…or in exploring, even arguing, an idea?

In some regards, this comes down to the crux of the same questions posed, when considering if NAMBLA held culpability in the murder of Jeffery Curley…

…We need to keep in mind, though…people searching for an excuse and validation, are going to keep looking until they think they have found it somewhere…And a violent, homicidal, necrophiliac sociopath…where do we suppose, such a person who can wrap his mind around doing all of that, cannot find some “hidden message”, that tells him to do as he pleases?

People like us have always been convenient “sitting ducks”, for anyone who claims their style of behavior [or what they have done], was the result of any manner of contact with us.

This is the sad reality of it…

…Anyone can connect themselves to us [this resource, etc.]…and go on to do things which the rest of us condemn, or advise against…And there is not a thing we can do, to stop them from this…aside from allowing only pre-approved posters to interact here [and even that is not a total guarantee]…but that destroys much of the reason for this board.

We cannot allow people to destroy and manipulate us through, and over, this.

There are many “pedophiles” who have done unspeakable things…This does not mean that we are bound or obliged, to bare the burden of their actions. It means that we are bound to a social problem, which we need to gain control over. Only then can we actually begin to exercise any power, over those who rape, brutalize and murder children, teens, etc…

In fact…I have to cast off these chains of blame even more fiercely, because of how disenfranchised, disconnected and debased we have been kept.

What is anybody to do, about things they don’t know about and are in no position to stop?…It is all the worse complicated, when we consider the endless list of dangers confronting us.

Yes, I have asked the question before…whether some individual has ever used my words, to justify cruel and inhumane behavior directed at anyone.

I am not aware of it ever happening…but even if someone pulled on me what was pulled on NAMBLA…it is inconceivable to me, that anything so antithetical to my very existence could be attributed to my words, by anything except the most mentally ill of minds. Which by definition of it’s own circumstance, would necessarily invalidate the claim of culpability.

Would I stop everything, if I had credible proof that doing so would spare one person [or more] from an unspeakable fate?…Yes…

…Though we will probably never meet that burden of proof…and I will be left the rest of my life, wondering about the effects on the flip side of this coin…you know…not opening up…not reaching out…not trying to help others, find a sense of meaning and worth in life…

…Am I culpable, also, because I went silent, and those who have never seen me, go on to rape and murder a child?

There is never any easy answer to this…But I do know that allowing ourselves to get brow beaten into submission over this, is no viable answer.

I cant rid this world of all the abusers in it…

…but I can do some small part, in fighting for a world where these cases are less common.

Should I be made to feel that their actions are due to me, and therefore my own?…because we happened to coexist here, for a time?

…I don’t believe so.