Daily Archives: April 4, 2016

A Rant: Bad Activism…


Date: April 04, 2016

01) A Rant: Bad Activism


“An unscripted, off the top of my head rant about shitty activism. Progressives have gone so off the rail, “activism” means very little these days. This will not be going on the patreon feed as it was just for my own impulsive need to express a sentiment.”

This rant is spot on.

“…it wasn’t enough to make up for a life led inauthentically”…


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Date: April 04, 2016

01) Through My Father’s Eyes

“Over time, I began to see the world through the eyes of my father as a gay man. The bigotry and the hatred. The unjust policies at the State and Federal levels. The terror that made him believe that life in the closet was at least a life. He’d be safe from bullying, arrests, and maybe even a lifetime in jail.

In the end, though, it wasn’t enough to make up for a life led inauthentically.”

…A beautiful memorial…and truth, which demands a lifetime worth of words…emotions…expressions…

It’s not enough…And for all that is lost, nothing will truly compensate.

Watching life pass…getting old…realizing what was never allowed to be…and that it all was no tiny, insignificant thing…It’s your core essence, that got stomped into oblivion.

…and for what?…to appease those who don’t even respect you, as a human being?…to dodge the bile and wrath, of people who don’t even care about your wellbeing?…to conform with those, possessing the most meager of vision?

…It’s not enough, to live a lie imposed upon you…This is what every social outcast knows.

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Sub-Blog Archive

Trauma: An Irreconcilable Contradiction (Narrated)…


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Date: April 04, 2016

This selection from “In Self Defense: The Life and Times of An Atheist BoyLover…Memoirs and Ethos”, has been narrated by Rocco White. Please enjoy the listen, or read along if you like…or need to.


I know I’ve written or spoken about this before, so I’ll try to be brief…

A few things have never made any sense to me…One being, that pedophilia results from a deep, personal trauma…usually a sexual abuse…but, something that is personally devastating and a very negative experience…

We have to suspend our common sense to accept this hypothesis…Because what it is really trying to tell us…is that something so nightmarishly horrible, shocking and traumatizing…can turn into something which is not only objectively exciting to us…but, something we might derive great joy out of [even if only masturbating to fantasies].

To apply this to pedophilia, is to claim “the abuse was so bad, they decided to spend the rest of their lives doing it”.

…Think about this…You’ve been injured and scarred so badly, that you allegedly gain a sexual attraction out of it [something which is generally a positive impulse]…Where normally, we might expect extreme dysfunction…and a lack of ability to perform at all…a tendency to run away from such behavior, if it were linked to some type of personal trauma.

How can they be even remotely connected?

…This is further complicated by the fact, that so many pedophiles were never sexually traumatized.

But, of course…we commonly get the weasel terminology “sexual abuse” used…Which allows them to imply abuse, and very vaguely acknowledge when the experience wasn’t especially bad [or could have even been good], without ever directly saying so.

A second thing that ties in…is aversion therapy…Where one is forced to mentally associate something painful, creepy, nauseating…even something personally frightening and traumatic, with their pedophilic sexual arousal…in order to contaminate their natural attractions…and their ability to become [or remain] aroused.

Cart O’Graph recently made a video, where the person he is responding to suggests doing exactly that…The one I found most creepy, objectionable and inhumane, was that of imagining being bitten by a snake…

…She suggests that you psychologically mess yourself up, in order to avoid your own pedophilia [something biological, which is taking place beneath your own skin]…

Now…here is something that I want you to contemplate…

…They tell us that our pedophilia is “caused by trauma”, on the one hand…And then on the other hand, many of the exact same people tell us that we have to traumatize ourselves all over again, just to “get rid of” our pedophilia…

…How is something unbelievably caused by trauma, ended by more trauma?

…How on earth, does the second wave of trauma [intended to get rid of the pedophilia], not end up just reinforcing the pedophilia?…

…Is there allegedly some type of value difference, between the two traumas?…And how is such a viewpoint justified?

…How does anybody pushing these two theories talk about them, and keep a straight face?…

…The two theories are irreconcilable.

The only thing I take away from all of this…is that none of the experts honestly know the cause of pedophilia [they just want us to believe, whatever it was, it was “bad”]…but, they’ve come to the realization that most pedophiles can be beaten down into submission…especially when they are kept isolated from their “pedophile” peers, and under the thumb of others.


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