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The personal “book” of my life…

Where it comes to my activism, I have three positions (Narrated)…


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Date: September 14, 2020


Where it comes to my activism, I have three positions…

1) All individuals and groups have an unquestionable right to a public voice and presence.

2) All individuals and groups have an unquestionable right to accurate representation of themselves.

3) All individuals and groups have an unquestionable right to humane and dignified social treatment.

None of these are extreme stances. All of these stances are the bedrock, of any culture which claims to function on representative government and values.

They are the bedrock of any healthy, functioning culture.


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The Problem With Distortions…

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Date: September 13, 2020

The problem with distortions about MAPs, molestation, rape, child pornography, etc…is that they have only ever led to injury, and the chronic ineptness in social structures claimed to combat human violence.

It never does anything good, to drown these issues in hyperbole…

It objectively does no good, to lie about the vast range of people, who are in some way impacted by these issues.

The only thing you are doing, is aggravating [possibly threatening] people, who already have a life full of complications and hurdles to overcome…

…A lot of these people have suffered immeasurably, over their own lifetime…

…and they don’t need others piling on top of them, making things worse.

This is among the many reasons it drives me up the wall, to see young MAPs embracing the negative, cultural talking points…and aggressively repeating them as if they were fact…

…even attacking other MAPs who’ve been around, who’ve seen behind the curtains…

…who rightly reject those cultural talking points.

All people should be free to outwardly talk about their own experiences and issues…

…Nobody should ever generalize their own thoughts and experiences, as being those of everybody else.


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It’s All Been Part of the Journey…


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Date: September 07, 2020

It’s hard to put into adequate words, what it’s meant to me as a homosexual pedophile…to have had the freedom to express myself outwardly into the world, explicitly regarding this existence…and my experiences within it.

It’s helped me to make sense of life…

…It’s helped me tremendously, to work through my own issues…and form my own, good ethics…

It’s helped me to grow…evolve…understand.

…It’s helped me put a face onto this existence…as well as various concepts…

It has helped me see the reality, concealed by the stigma.

…It’s helped me understand how cruel this world is…and…how undying hope continues to fight back.

…I’ve met some of the greatest people, along this journey.

I would not trade this existence, nor this journey, for anything.

Some may say to me…that I should feel shame over myself…over all that I have done here…

…But, seriously…Why should I?…

Presumably…they [and you] have and exercise the ability, to talk about and discuss the issues of your own life…

…I have merely been doing the exact same thing, as anybody else does.

We are not all the same…

…It’s when you encounter people like me…that you come to realize what equal rights actually mean…

There is a reason I started the Equality Foundation…and chose that name…

…My writings and media, are an embodiment of my own equal rights.


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Michael Brooks Died…


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Date: July 20, 2020

He got his start on the Majority Report with Sam Seeder…which, in my opinion, is a model for how not to produce a media show, if you don’t want to come off like a bunch of aggressive, arm twisting, well poisoning, ideologues, who cant see past their own egos…

I left Majority Report behind years ago, because I, frankly, could not stand it anymore…

I’ve encountered Michael trash talking atheists and pedophiles at least enough times, to where I consider the guy a lousy, mouthy a-hole, to be entirely honest…

Never considered fully banishing him from my blogging activities…provided he had an interesting enough guest, or topic of discussion…

…but I seriously did not like this guy, on a gut level.

He took cheap shots at underdogs, like the “best” of them.

…I felt like he came from that wing of modern “progressive” media, which exhibits all the things wrong with “progressive” media.

Hell…screw “progressive” media…

We need respectful, open minded, communicative media…what “progressive” media often fails to be.

I’m sorry the guy died…

…but he was genuinely an arrogant jerk, from what I experienced of him.

…I don’t believe in mystical karma…but the word keeps scampering through my mind, right now…the principle of what’s been earned.

…So many people who think there are “trash” human beings in this world, who it’s “right” to disparage, are going to see in a Michael Brooks, only what they want to see.

Those who personally felt the sting of his popular bully pulpit, cant see it the same.

I just really had to type this out, right now.

I don’t want to sucker punch anyone in their time of grief…

…It’s just, being on the low rungs of society, you get sick of these sorts of people…

…Karma…

You just get so sick of the supposedly “good” people in media, being that way.


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If You’re Part of the Human Race, You’re Part of My Race (Narrated)…


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Date: July 16, 2020

This selection from “In Self Defense: The Life and Times of An Atheist BoyLover…Memoirs and Ethos”, has been narrated by Rocco White. Please enjoy the listen, or read along if you like…or need to.
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01) [ FULL SESSION ] Professor Griff / #CannonsClass


“In this session of #CannonsClass, author of book “A Warrior’s Tapestry” – Professor Griff (also known as the “Minister of Information”) talks about Minister Farrakhan, Public Enemy, Hip Hop, our birth right and more.”

Melanin…The power of Melinated People?…

You can watch the entire episode to get full context [if there is any fuller context required]…The top link is to the video…the embedded video is set to start just before the few minutes I’m responding to…

I’m not sure I’ve encountered this idea of people with more melanin in their skin being more human than white people…and I really have a hard time believing there is any hard science to back it up…

I’m open to substantial evidence…but this really sounds like a lot of whooy…fantastical, mystical speaking…

I’ve no doubt people of African descent have largely been treated viciously by other humans…and in the history books, as well…I have no doubt, they have had refined cultures to be proud of…I have no doubt, they are valuable…

…I also understand, this is media meant for a certain audience…and there is a whole lot of messed up human history, underneath what is being expressed.

I don’t want to be so trite as to say, “I don’t see race”…

…but there are reasons why you never see or hear me demeaning any race…and why I never ask anyone about their race…

…I simply do not believe that biological racial differences are at all important…and I think they are among the most sad, pathetic of excuses to separate people.

I am mixed race, myself…Though, admittedly…I have had the advantage of being a mixture of Native American, German and British [three heritage that aren’t particularly stigmatized in the modern world]…If we were standing next to each other and you didn’t have familiarity with Native American physical traits, you’d probably recognize me as being white…and think nothing more of it…

…But I don’t really think of myself as part of any specific race…I’m not emotionally or psychologically tied to the white race…nor do I take it as a personal offense, when people disparage the white race…not even if I do think the act was wrong…

…If I get offended by anything…it’s that someone has been done wrong…in spoken word or action.

To me…watching that clip…what I would say to anyone who believes these things about inborn racial superiority…or who harbors anger over past wrongs…

…is that the only thing that matters…is that any hate or animosity ends with us…and there is no justification for conflict between us…You can be the brother, sister, mother, father, son or daughter who I choose, and who chooses me…and it does not matter what you look like…

…It matters that we accept and enrich each other…

I have no use for beliefs of superiority…my own [which is a laugh], or anyone else’s [which is also a laugh]…

What says everything…is whether or not we will be there for each other, looking out for each other…

…Skin color is nothing.

If you are part of the human race…then you are part of my race…We are all full blooded animals…none closer than any other to the animal kingdom…We are sophisticated apes…anything beyond this, is just branches in the evolutionary tree.


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Condemning “Pedophilia”: Isn’t The Evidence Overwhelming, and What Happens When It is Not?…


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May 20, 2020

If you’d have told me twenty years ago that research on “pedophilia” was intentionally skewed heavily to the negative…that a lot of concealment was happening…and that some forms of pedophilic sexual expression could be morally defended…I’d have thought you were insane…

I fully believed and accepted that “the facts were in, and established”…that averages in the broad scheme of things soundly condemned pedophilic sexual activity…and that only rare instances left people unscathed for life.

It wasn’t until I was forced to watch uproars unfolding regarding “The Rind Report”, that I had to confront and discover just how deep and corrupt the distortion gets…and it was a complete head trip for me, as a pedophile…discovering that they actually practiced, and felt a need to practice, concealment and censorship within the research, itself…

…Was sex between children and adults [or teens] not bad enough, on it’s own?…Did they need to actively darken the picture in people’s minds, to make it sufficiently intolerable?…and why?

As a pedophile…you spend all your life believing these things about yourself…eventually discovering, that you’ve spent your life being lied to…and not in small, inconsequential ways…but in ways which debase your entire perception of the world around you…of the people around you…

…And it’s all right there, unfolding in front of you…You cannot deny it…It is happening…

…How can I ever have any faith, in any system or individual who does this?

This behavior is completely without redemption.

This level and degree of social and political manipulation, should never be acceptable to anyone.

Censoring Sex Research: The Debate over Male Intergenerational Relations

I know that spending money is a lot to ask…especially $40 or more…

…but, please…if you are going to tread off into the “pedophile research” conflict…at least know and understand the environment and base issues we are dealing with, before you go picking up any stance and defending it.

That the establishment has been using the exact same practices they used against gays and lesbians, in order to unjustly smear, tarnish and imprison them, to continue doing the same to MAPs…is an absolute fact.

We are not being treated this way because we are bad, or wrong…

…We are being treated this way, because they do not consider us to be human beings…and given history, they “know” they can get away with this…

…It’s time to make a radical social change…and make them understand clearly…

…They can no longer get away with this.


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What Does It Do To a Person?…


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Date: May 16, 2020

What does it do to a person who so clearly had sexual frustration issues as a child and youth…to eventually come to the discovery that avenues for addressing their sex drive have always existed for them, biologically inborn within our species…but those avenues were blocked by social and legal prohibition?


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Sexual Repression: Western Sexual Ethics…


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Date: May 10, 2020

01) Accepting the Sexual Self

Personally…having seen and experienced first hand, what sexual repression does to an individual [including children]…I’ve genuinely come to see the culture of voluntary child loving, as a desperately needed, social good…one that has been missing in the human species, for far too long.

What has cropped up in it’s natural place, and absence, is among the deepest of human tragedies.

So much anger and violence comes directly from sexual repression…and this kills people, in numerous ways.

Too many people are blaming the wrong things, for all the ills in this world.

Why cant people just be happy for each other, and leave each other alone, when people are happy among themselves?

It’s always got to be about control…never about trust, acceptance or letting people be free to experience life.

It’s painting people in the worst light possible, instead of allowing them to be the positive beauty they naturally have inside of themselves…That is what “western” sexual ethics are, from my experience…and I see them as primarily wicked…It’s as if they want human consciousness to be hell.

I think that’s why I am so aggressively open minded and liberal about freedom…I cannot take the soul destroying control and intolerance, nor the injuries and suffering they cause, anymore.


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“Stop Glorifying Pedophiles”?…


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Date: March 14, 2020

We pedophiles are just normal human beings, on a normal human sexual spectrum…We just happen to be at a spot which prefers prepubescent human beings.

I don’t believe taking stock and joy in the good in both life and ourselves, constitutes some unjust glorification.

It’s a simple acceptance of ourselves, and a stand that we belong in this world and matter as human beings…as a part of this world, we are valuable.

I want to know why there is this trend to compare us with “people who want to murder”…because that is just goofy beyond all comprehension.

Murder is objectively injurious, and robbing others of something irreplaceable and finite.

Even then…”wanting to” and doing are not at all the same thing.

…But why would you bring up something so absolutely devastating…when pedophiles don’t even tend to do anything, objectively bad?

This behavior is known as poisoning the well.

It is imposing a false premise upon others.


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What I tell people is this…


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Date: January 15, 2020

…Treat people well…

…Love people in the way they need to be loved…

…Don’t generalize your personal life experiences, to everybody else…

…And let the willing, share their happiness with each other.

Don’t kill what little joy exists.

You don’t have to understand those people who are “weird”, or “perverted”, or who have a need you don’t identify with.

You just need to be able to see, when two or more people are sharing a life enhancing benefit, from the ways they are socially different.


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