Date: October 29, 2016
Note: There are two different names these were posted under, but they all came from the same IP address…It’s the same person.
To the person calling themselves “TheSith” [a curious and telling character, to choose for ones self]…I am genuinely sorry for whatever it is you experienced…Do not mistake…I am not an individual of the nature which you accuse.
This blog exists for positive and productive dialogue…I do not approve comments left on this blog, of the nature which you have left.
At most…they are either deleted or I take screen captures, and add them to my collection of hate speech and online terrorism…potentially to show up in this posting series, at some future date.
So…if you are not prepared for a respectful, goodwill dialogue, with expectations that we can bridge some sort of gap between us…then I would suggest it’s best to keep these things to yourself.
You’ve expressed both a knowledge and will to set into motion at least one homicide, and directly commit another.
You need to get your head on right.
…And do not place me in a position where I have to guess, whether or not I need to report you to the police.
“You know what would be so fun? If I could lock you in a secluded area in a tiny building and slowly torture and eventually let you die of your injuries. I hope you linger on for weeks or months and I hope it’s hell. That’s what I plan on doing to the pedophile who raped me. You all deserve what I’ll to do him. You’re not human beings, you’re monsters who don’t deserve to live. I hope a law is passed that makes it legal to kill you people out in the open.”
I forgive you.
But onlookers of this post should know…what is expressed here…is the message, mindset and cultural atmosphere, which I grew up in…It took me many years of struggling, and suicidal tendencies, to work my way through that alone…I am a survivor, by the most stark and raw definition…
…Later years of my life have seen me trying to build a bridge…build some sort of a way forward…And yes…I have experienced severe discrimination, multiple times over…and I’ve witnessed many additional incidents…
The person who is trying to deny me, that I’ve ever been discriminated against…is dumping onto me, precisely the sort of discrimination, torment and abuse I’ve frequently spoken of.
That type of behavior is psychological rape…It’s not something that just goes away…It’s something you carry forever.
I have chosen to rise above all of this, and take the high road. I have dedicated myself, to seeking the better way forward.
““To those who have suffered sexual assault of whatever kind…and who have suffered dearly in life, haunted by this event…Know that you have my sincere sympathy, my empathy and my compassion for what you had to endure…”
No you don’t actually feel sorry for these people. To things like you stories of horrific assaults are just wank material for you. Hell one of your pedophile friends on you YouTube channel asked a victim to detail her sexual abuse. I guess watching kids get raped on Tor doesn’t get him hard anymore. His YouTube name is ******, he looks like a mongoloid with red hair. I made sure to spread his profile around to people who are willing to contact him and tell him what he outta do. Which of course is kill himself, he won’t be missed and neither will you. As to your buddy ************ from Phoenix, Arizona…..well there’s a few militia groups and outlaw gangs out there and I’m sure they’d just love to get their hands on him. He’s weak, pale and scrawnier than a hardcore meth-head. I doubt he’d survive whatever is done to him. But isn’t that the plan? Because of people like you I have the job that I have, out of all the hundreds of kids I’ve seen only 36 were abused by “child molesters.” The rest were attacked by pedophiles, pedophiles who caused lasting physical and mental injuries. Injuries so horrific some adults don’t even recover let alone a 3-year old who is repeatedly raped. But to your kind it wasn’t rape it was love. The pedophile that raped her said it was love that made him rip apart a little girl. Pedophiles who drove 15 of these kids to kill themselves, deaths that I personally witnessed. I’ve witnessed countless other suicide attempts by crazed victims who want their nightmares to stop. Because of your kind 15 kids at the hospital I work for are dead. 16 if you count the adoptive sister I lost. She killed herself when she was 10 years old not too long after I walked into an old run down shed after hearing her screaming and crying and telling the two pedophiles raping her to stop. Because of your kind she’s dead. I held her while she died and I will not forget that. I was 15-years old when she died, I still have the clothes I was wearing when she bled out. Her blood is still soaked into them and some days I have to struggle to not break down sobbing at that memory. Your kind is a blight that must be purged. If only Hitler had killed you all, if only he could’ve killed you all, if only he didn’t target Jews and Romanis. I hope someone finds you and kills you and each and every one of your baby raping friends too. Your kind is one without remorse or sympathy, you’re incapable of understanding right from wrong or caring about the pain you cause others.
You have no power to put words into my mouth…And nobody of integrity will be swayed by your attempt.
I am an ally of victims, just as many other MAPs are.
What you have offered here, will help nobody…It will improve nothing…It will only release hate, abuse and fear into this world.
No one who cares about victims, behaves in that way.
In addition, I’d like to point out…
…Just because I happen to have a few YouTube accounts, does not make me part of a “pedophile borg”…I cant control, nor will I answer for, what every other person online does.
I’ve openly condemned bad behavior amongst MAPs, for years…But I don’t normally even go into the cesspool, which is the YouTube comments section…So, I’m not likely to even see, whatever it is you are alleging to have happened.
You’ve referenced an alleged bad behavior of someone on YouTube…yet you’ve failed to give any context, or citation.
Having dealt with far too many abusive fanatics over the years…I know better than to just take these statements at face value…I’ve witnessed real situations where the fanatic, and the person behind the behavior they were screaming about, were one and the same.
Too many of you think you can entirely make up stories about us, and even stage false acts attributed to us…All because you think something entitles you.
…And, you are confused…I don’t allow comments on any of my YouTube channels…You are thinking of someone else.
As for your loss…you have my condolences…
…And as for the rest…I forgive you, again.
However…I am not a pacifist, where it comes to people attacking my person…
…Anyone envisioning a physical confrontation with me, would do well to keep this in mind.
Oh…and for your information…What I masturbate to, is thoughts of kissing the naked bodies of prepubescent boys…and personal fantasies of sucking them off to orgasm…Sometimes, I imagine myself the boy…And sometimes, I am a boy with other boys.
…Other times, I go back into my own memories, of romps I was pulled into by my cousins…I often embellish and expand upon the reality of that history…But it’s a private fantasy…It’s mine to do with, as I please.
I’ve never masturbated to violent stories [or porn] in my entire life. That sort of thing has nothing to do with my sexual orientation.
““…Victims who are in my category, do not sincerely have any of these things.”
“Truth be told, people like me show a tremendous deal more respect towards victims of sexual violence, than most…”
Actually you don’t. Your kind tells them bullshit like “I’m sorry you were raped, I wouldn’t have hurt you like that.” Which is a pedophiles’ way of saying you would have tried to politely rape them, you wouldn’t have taken no for an answer. You are a liar.
“At the very least, I respect those victims enough not to lie to them…Which puts me well ahead of the status quo.”
Actually you lie to them by saying you understand them. When in actuality your kind just likes to read stories of brutal sexual assault on children because it’s the only thing that gets you off. Further proof that you’re untrustworthy creatures.
“I am neither feeding people fantasy, nor trying to saddle others with false victimhood and all the psychological baggage that comes with it.”
Says the faggot crying about being a victim of discrimination. You are not discriminated against but keep crying about and you’ll get it.”
You remind me of a certain BoyLover from BoyChat…
…No matter what you’re talking about, or trying to communicate…it’s always the basis for a confrontation with him…He always picks something to dismiss, and replace with his own slanted re-interpretation. So…you’re never entitled to your own words or voice, around him…You’re never entitled to speak for yourself…You’re just a subject for him, to do with as he pleases…
…Which makes it impossible, to have any coherent or meaningful exchange with him…And he often uses this tactic, to cause turmoil on the board.
I see exactly what you are doing…It’s amongst the oldest tactics in the book…And I am immune to these tactics.
You don’t understand much of anything about MAPs [or pedophiles], as an overall group…And if you worked at a hospital for those kinds of abuse cases, as you claim…then you have got to realize, that you have lived in an unnaturally high concentration of the worst cases, which were collected and brought to you…Your experience and resulting viewpoint, are grossly skewed.
I am sorry for what all you have had to see, in your particular, uncommon setting…But I will not allow that, to wrongly represent people like myself.
People do bad things in this world…We are not all, those people.
…And I don’t “cry about discrimination”…I speak about the realities of it, and the impact it has.
The difference between someone like me and someone like you…is that I want these cycles of violence and abuse to stop…and I clearly understand why they need to…while you are just shooting at the world, and the phantoms you see.
Your path leads nowhere.
I forgive you, again…
If you have any genuine intent, of ever sparing a child from the fate you speak of…then you need to come to terms with the fact…that MAPs must be able to come out, and live safely in public…This is the only way to have any chance of knowing, when a MAP may be going astray…
Your threats don’t work…In fact, they make things worse.
Understand it…Own it…And correct your behavior.
“My motivations are due to anger and frustration of seeing you shitstaints get away with horrific crimes again and again and again. I’ve had enough.”
You don’t know me…You don’t know most of us MAPs…
…And we’ve already established that you have had an abnormally high exposure, to the worst sorts of sexual brutality.
…You’ve clearly displayed right here, that you cannot handle it.
You are exactly the sort of person who should stay out of these discussions, because you have clearly lost touch with objective reality [to say nothing of your own humanity].
I would suggest that you should get out of the field you are in, altogether…Because it is clearly destroying you.
I forgive you, again…
…But that does not mean, what you have done here is alright…
I am a human being…a rather good, kind human being…I have done none of the things you accuse me of…
…I deserve an apology, for your foul behavior against me.
…Are you big enough to give one?
– Steve Diamond
For The Record:
Brutality of any form, is not love.
Lust, while morally neutral, is not itself love.
Laying yourself on the line for another, is love.
Being there for another, is love.
Sharing a life of joy, is love.
Humans of all ages, have a vast capacity for love.
…All humans are entitled to freely love and be loved.
Now…Is there anything I have left out, which is not crystal clear?
I ask you sincerely, who deserves these words of vulgar abuse and hate, merely for daring to live, love and be loved?…
Have no doubt, that Child Love and Teen Love are a pure form of love…genuine and worthy of defense, no matter what some may say about it…
| THE WALL |
Date: July 29, 2016
Some people might be wondering what this post was all about…
Here is the history:
This is really the story of three different groups…
…One group being the BoyLovers of BoyChat…the other two being the group of fanatics that made up “Perverted Justice” [Yes, the Dateline NBC “To Catch a Predator” people] and elements of “Absolute Zero United”.
Perverted Justice [PJ] was a hate group, which targeted “pedophiles” [or Minor Attracted People]…Absolute Zero United [AZU], was a group of the same nature.
A few AZU members had a history of being moles on BoyChat…Two in particular, displayed a sociopathic and predatory obsession with stalking and outing BoyChatters…They were posting on BoyChat for years…and really badly hurt some people.
BoyChat is an online posting chat board, which historically existed for the purpose of providing community and emotional support, for Minor Attracted People [MAPs] who are sexually attracted to boys. The behavior allowed on BoyChat was [and remains] soundly legal…and the community was on board with this objective, with exception to the rare outlier…who would either conceal what they were doing…or they would eventually find themselves banned from BoyChat, if they ever attempted to bring it there.
BoyChat was never a hub for criminal behavior…It was a community hub, for emotional and psychological enrichment…It was a place for communication with peers…and sometimes, with outsiders. For many of us writers…it was a place of personal journey, and personal discovery…
What BoyChat allowed us…was life changing…We finally found ourselves, because of BoyChat…and it was utterly beautiful.
PJ was a group that was out there…We at BoyChat knew about them, well before they became famous from NBC. They would conduct stings in online chat rooms, collect information on people chatting with their fake [minor] decoy…Then they’d name and shame them, on their Perverted Justice website.
PJ did get some attention from BoyChat…and given the nasty attitude and character of Xavier Von Erck [aka: Philip John Eide…PJs founding member], who openly admits targeting MAPs out of bold faced hatred, and has wished various inhumanities upon us…some of the BoyChat comments weren’t kind…Though I would say most of them were measured and fair.
BoyChat never did anything to either of these groups, beyond discussing them from time to time…issuing warnings about them to BoyLovers and such. It was overwhelming agreed, that what they were doing was wrong…But we didn’t really have any course of action we could take…And, I fear many thought “it’s not our fight”.
In it’s years of previous existence, PJ had only targeted people they caught in their stings…They openly stated, that the people they exposed had been caught breaking the law…This was a sort of benchmark, for the justification they gave regarding their actions. The people were [allegedly] criminals.
…I don’t even remember what year this was…2007, I guess…but it was probably almost ten years ago, now …For some reason, Philip became obsessed with taking down BoyChat [probably saw himself being called a “toad faced gremlin”, one to many times…started beating his chest, and instantly formed a vendetta]. Philip is a malicious person.
He managed to get BoyChats hosting arrangements terminated…
…Then higher up, JimF3, got us new hosting…and seconds before our old host cut off service, the entire Free Spirits website went live, on an entirely different host…The complete time of our “outage”, could be measured in minutes…This really pissed off Philip…
Simultaneously, Free Spirits administration was researching the option of suing MCI Canada, in order to get it’s status of “common carrier” revoked…Because it legally is required to provide service, to all paying customers operating within the law, in order to retain it’s advantageous “common carrier” status…When they blatantly discriminated against us.
We had a fundraiser on BoyChat…I should say, my own time on BoyChat administration was far into the past…But I did come back around for this…and became very excited, that our community was going to stand up and fight for itself.
In about ten days…maybe two weeks…we had amassed pledges amongst our community, in the amount of thirty five thousand dollars US [$35,000]…Which was extremely impressive, and energizing. The real amount they ended up collecting, was something more like $24,000, I believe…but it was still amazing…and BoyChat showed that it had the capacity to be a juggernaut, when it needed to be.
For better or for worse…the pledge page was public…and I pledged [and paid] over $1000 US, to this cause.
Philip’s response [along with his minions (IE: AZU)], was to start targeting BoyLovers from BoyChat [starting with the people who pledged money]…Based on the point that we were merely out here…that we were standing up to him…and this pissed him off.
Philip green-lighted “The Corporate Sex Offender” website…built, funded and hosted it…Where he [and his minions] stole the signature pictures of many BoyChat members…Where he started taking [and sometimes altering] portions of our posts on BoyChat [a copyright violation], and reposting them out of context, with no citation link…and strategically chosen and presented, so as to give distorted, one dimensional representations of many BoyChat posters.
The public intention behind this website…was to openly identify and out members of the BoyChat community…
…What was our “crime”?…
…We were simply out here, freely associating…and we were willing to stand up for ourselves, while exercising our voices…
That is it.
…PJ flushed what little integrity it had down the toilet, at that point in time…Because it could no longer hide that it was a hate group…It could no longer make claim, that it was targeting criminals…PJ was blatantly targeting, threatening, harassing, demeaning and terrorizing
For whatever I may have thought of PJ previously…I assure you…Things became personal at that point in time…and I got a good first hand education, of exactly what these sociopathic thugs are all about.
…Being honest and upstanding citizens, has nothing to do with what PJ was all about…They were out to simply fuck people over, to satisfy their own egos.
I mostly ignored “The Corporate Sex Offender registry”…because it was maliciously outing some people, who are my friends…and I did not want to bring more attention to the website. This is primarily why I’ve been so quiet about it, all these years.
The original chosen name [Corporate Sex Offender]…is something Philip pulled out of his own ass…Inventing a specious definition of a new “sex offender” class…One were Philip assumed that because there were many of us associating with each other, and money was being pooled…he could assume us to be “a corporation”…And because he did not like our viewpoints, or our speech…Philip figured he could spin it, that we were advocating, encouraging, educating, sponsoring, facilitating and trying to legalize “child sex abuse”…Hence, this supposedly made all of us being targeted “sex offenders”.
The list was blatant slander and terrorism…It was obvious stalking…and obviously sociopathic in nature.
It stayed online for about a year and a half…when Philip abruptly pulled it offline…claiming that there was no longer any interest amongst PJs minions, to maintain the site…
…Much to the dismay, of a couple AZU members who were still actively behind the site.
As it turns out…Philip lied…He needed to do an emergency clean up of PJ [his organization], losing the “Corporate Sex Offender” site, and telling a lot of his minions to get lost…
After having lost their deal with Dateline NBC [which paid them something like $100,000 per episode] after a high profile suicide, PJ was suddenly without income…and the three principle members of PJ decided to apply for “non profit” status…If it was known the debauchery PJ was embroiled in, nearly all of it’s prior existence…even if only what it was doing to people like me, with it’s so called “Corporate Sex Offender register”…This would have greatly jeopardized their ability to attain “non profit” status…Because it would have essentially made them a blatant, state sponsored terrorist hate group…What they were involved in, disqualified them from being a “non profit”.
Why did they want to be a “non profit”?…So that they could avoid paying certain taxes on their something like 1.4 million dollars in capital…as the three of them gave themselves fat, six digit yearly incomes…and allowed the capital of PJ to drain into their private bank accounts.
Now…the money was legally theirs…the three earned it in show business [Dateline NBC]…But what makes this so sleazy [aside from the nature of how they earned it], is that they filled out the application, representing themselves as intending to carry on PJ, as some sort of law enforcement education business…Something they never followed up on…They took all the money for themselves, under false pretenses…and quietly let PJ go bankrupt…They quietly shut it down…and they have tried to distance themselves, from their many sins of the past.
The sin of “Corporate Sex Offender” was also known as “Wikisposure”, during the time PJ was running it.
Shortly after PJ disingenuously distanced itself from this debacle…Cynthia Jean [Dale] Harvey of AZU collected up the pages, and put them back online under the name “Evil-Unveiled”. This insane psychopath proceeded to attain hosting, and promptly get terminated for blatant terms of service violations…The site itself, and what it was doing [slandering, stalking, harassing and terrorizing people, who were simply exercising their free speech], was an indefensible violation of most terms of service…and it was also a clear hotbed, for justified law suits.
Eventually this incompetent, mentally ill, malicious woman resorted to giving the website content, to the trolls who own Encyclopedia Dramatica…Perhaps, she is a member there also…I don’t know.
I do know for a fact, however…that for roughly the past decade, the people of PJ, Cynthia and probably a few others, have actively worked to threaten, intimidate and injure me, as well as to defame my online persona.
I never did anything to any of these people…yet I was the target of their abuse, vitriol, malice and hostility…And, yes…after an epic marathon of weathering this…I have, from time to time, acknowledged what insufferable assholes they are.
Those people are criminals…and they are the worst the human species has to offer.
It has been on my mind for years, to make a proper response to the “Steve-D” [which is me] page they made.
…And you can consider this to be the second part of that response.
I don’t really care what any of these people think about me, or my ideas…It’s none of their business, that I find value in discussing particular issues…And they have no right falsely claiming me to be a “sex offender”, over my speech and ideas…Nor any right for harassing and threatening me, all of these many years.
A sane person would have agreed to disagree, and peacefully gone their own way…but not these sociopath predators of PJ and AZU.
Yes…It has become deeply personal.
These have been the historic facts behind “Evil-Unveiled”, and my prior response to it.
Date: July 27, 2016
Links: Copy and paste them.
Warning: I do not suggest visiting the Encyclopedia Dramatica website. Like various troll owned websites, visiting has been known to set off alarms from anti-virus software. The people behind Encyclopedia Dramatica are clearly malicious. Visit at your own risk. The link is offered strictly as proof.
You can find it cached at the URL below:
DEAD LINK [Original URL – A Perverted Justice Website]
Note: At one point in time, there was a bastardized paragraph taken from one of my BoyChat posts, which was altered [words were deleted] to make it look as though I’d stated the exact opposite of what I stated in my post. I think this was on an older version of Wikisposure [“CorporateSexOffenders”], and that my archival of that version is not presently in my possession. Therefore, I will make no further comment on this, unless I retrieve those files.
…I’m just shocked that this slanderous swipe at me was edited out of the page…Possibly someone was afraid of being sued…Or, because my privacy was violated and they know who I am, they cleaned the page up to make it appear professional [as opposed to the malicious hatchet job it is, where the lies can be clearly established].
I’m offering two versions of this page. They are only stylistically different, except one offers a few more graphics.
First Copy [Zip Archive]:
Second Copy [Zip Archive]:
Full HTML Pages [Zip Archive]:
Had a zip file containing two HTML files, and their file folders…But, the pages try to run a script upon loading…So, I didn’t feel good about offering that one. The previous two links show the pages…They’re just chopped up into several screen captures.
Since I already said much of what I would be inclined to say, below…I’m just going to add a couple of notes.
“Goodguy’s Erotic Quest” is an over the top story, made up of a smorgasbord of shorter masturbation stories.
For quite a number of years, Cynthia was the primary promoter of this story, as she had it linked directly at this page. This was especially outlandish, given the big stink they were making about the story…and the “trigger” warning that accompanied the link. The link is now gone.
You can find it with a simple web search. It still resides in the Nifty archive…an archive for alternative stories.
A bit of trivia…
I wrote this most of twenty years ago. It was a gift, of sorts…First to my friends, who I love…and second to the broader community, to help them cope with life a bit better.
Second…these people have never given live citation links, to anything of mine…no links to my BoyChat posts…and never a link to any of my blogs or websites. They only provide links to resources of mine, which they already know are not there [and have not been, for a very long time].
They refuse to cite my http://ourlovefrontier.com/ domain…despite that they know I have it, and that I am here on WordPress.
Fact is…these malicious people don’t want you to come visit me, and see what I’ve honestly been up too, for the past ten years. I’ve always found this to be incredibly sleazy behavior on their part, given that they are trying to paint a very narrow picture of me…One which does not honestly represent me.
Anyone reading anything I write, needs to know the context in which I have written those words…Which is why failing to provide citation links, is so sleazy…Onlookers do not get the full picture. My words are also edited, to make them look how the website owner wants them to look. This is deception.
Third…I have a long history of exploring the philosophy of man boy love, in my writings. I have always advocated against people seeking real world sex, of any illegal form. I’m a realist, however…and I understand that things go on in the world, which I have no control over…and some people break those laws, regardless of what I have to say about it.
I have never encouraged anyone to break these laws…My activities have had nothing to do with that…Which is why despite knowing who I am…they cant swoop in and arrest me.
A handful of really bad things have happened, at the hands of certain BoyChat posters…Things which were done behind the back of our community…Things we have condemned…and were shocked to discover had happened.
These particular people were already on some kind of private personal course…and they would have interpreted their “justification” from anywhere.
…My activities have never had anything to do with that…nor the celebration or encouragement of it.
The rhyme I wrote for Gort was composed during my first year at BoyChat…
…The circumstances Gort got himself into, which lead to his suicide and an enormous mess…that happened something like five or more years later.
This is why I make comment about their choice to use the Gort rhyme, down below…They’re making it look as though I was making light of what Sparks and Gort did…when I never have [nor would I have].
Those two were estranged from BoyChat for quite a long time, before it became known what they were up too.
For most of us…participation on BoyChat has been entirely about the companionship, and the ability to both learn our roots as BoyLovers…and to exercise our own voices.
The single most horrible experiences I’ve had to live with…is watching my beloved friends fall…Not most of them…but enough…It has changed me, over the years.
I acknowledge a certain naivety, from my earliest years at BoyChat [which is where the bulk of my participation is concentrated]…
…But it’s entirely false, to claim or imply I ever had any knowledge or intent, regarding the actions of certain BoyChat posters.
…I am absolutely proud of my contributions at BoyChat…Just as I am proud of my activities in the blogosphere.
My intent has always been noble, openly genuine and pure.
Fourth…The boy in the picture is me…It was my first signature picture, on BoyChat…I’ve been contemplating having my original signature pictures restored on BoyChat, for a few years now…It really hurt me, taking those down…But, I wanted to retain the option of plausible deniability, even if I never used it…
Today, I don’t even much care…I am a human being…and my pictures of myself, represent my humanity…They help to make my presence both personal, and real.
The people who have been targeting and harassing me over the past [I don’t even know how many] years, should feel nothing but shame…over having stolen this from me.
If I get around to restoring them…they will also serve as a middle finger, explicitly to you people.
Finally…It’s very ironic…that the specific quotes you see above, I don’t object too [other than their context has been concealed]…Given the same circumstances they happened in…I would say and express them, all over again…I likely have, in most cases.
I am not ashamed of speaking truth, nor of holding a unique worldview…I am not ashamed of standing up for people, who are being persecuted for their sexuality, and for what is outside of their control.
Last…I want to repeat and emphasize that this is not the exact same version of that webpage, which has been online for years, on a bunch of different web hosts…It’s clearly been altered, and “cleaned up” by these scumbags.
The fanatics behind the hounding of me, can all go screw themselves…
…I am not going to be shouted down, nor intimidated into silence by you cowardly predators.
My original response to this personal threat made against me, from June 24, 2007:
[This is in response to a version of the page threatening my privacy and safety, which differs from the more recent versions I have archived in this post. It may reference things which aren’t explicitly shown here, but which were part of the original page, and remained so for several years.]
I am the “infamous” atheist BoyLover, Steve Diamond, in case anyone is confused by this response. If you don’t know me, then let me just say…I am a humanist, who supports and promotes human rights. I believe in supporting others, being kind and working together to find workable solutions. I am nobody special, in the grander scheme…but, I am someone who has reached a breaking point, and took a stand that this persecution of BL/GLs must stop.
I’m just going through the more outrageously underhanded slights, that were slung at me.
1) …I am “conceited”?…
…How dare I be an uppity pedophile (we are supposed to be depraved trash, aren’t we?), who calls for fairness, compassion, an open mind and equality?…
…How dare I call upon others to learn respect for us?…
…How dare I seek peace and harmony, in my time?…
…How dare I try to help matters?…
I am disturbing the hate and violence.
If that makes me “conceited”, then I will damn sure be conceited…vain…whatever you want to call it.
Sorry (No I’m not), but…I’m not the stereotype, and I will never pretend to be.
2) If mentioning once, over a sentence or two (in order to establish a history) in my blogger profile, that I used to be on the BC admin, means that I “talk about [it] everywhere”…
You can stop trying so hard, to make me look pathetic, as though I’m living on “past glory”.
Truth be told, I’ve almost entirely redefined myself, over the past year…and I’ve been very neglectful of BC, for the past few years.
It’s because I moved on, and attained a different focus.
There will always be a special place in me for BC, however.
3) I was a volunteer at Lifeline for a time (though I make no claim, to have been all that good at it). I never did a hotline…and I don’t recall anyone ever coming to Lifeline, to talk to me about having sex with boys.
That line was pulled, in its’ entirety, out of the authors own ass. It is a lie.
I have never even implied this, anywhere…and I would never, ever speak in a derogatory way, about those who frequent Lifeline, past or present.
That is a cheap, immature stab at BoyLovers in general…and at myself…as well as my writings…I’ve always condemned, disputed and dispelled the stereotype…and worked to expose how false it is.
You can stop trying so hard, to make me seem like a two faced slime bag.
I’ve seen an enormous amount of good in BoyLovers…If I had not, I’d have been gone for good, years ago.
The reason I left Lifeline, was because of my personal health, and an evolution in my own, personal drive…I was somewhat disillusioned, and adrift. I had lost my focus.
These are the only reasons I left Lifeline.
4) I’m not certain what “all the hardships life has to offer” are…or how anyone came to the conclusion that “I” have in any way attached myself to them.
Considering how tight lipped I am about all of my personal endeavors, what I have genuinely lived through, and what I have to deal with (online and off), I find it remarkable that anyone would ever say such a thing…
…or, did they pull another comment entirely out of their own ass?…
You can stop trying so hard, to make people think I am a whiny, self appointed, martyr wanna be…
Funny how little they know about me, evident by their almost empty identifying information…yet, they pretend to know me in some way…and characterize me in ways, that I hope nobody believes even resemble me.
5) I apologize to “I Love Green Olives”, for that grossly out of context, re posting of something I left on his blog. Most precisely, if it was ever taken in any way, I had not intended it.
His blog was deleted…It was titled, “Defending the Pedoerotic”…In a friendly tone, I suggested, maybe he would have better luck, if he did not chose a title which was so blatant. I was offering up one of my own, long term strategies, for his consideration.
…and as to the “30 GB of CP” comment, that was taken from somewhere…I don’t recall where, but I was talking about how illegal activities are holding us back, in their own ways…and making us easy targets.
You can get this sound advice, from any number of people who post right here at BC…who have been around for a long time, and know better, because they have seen the cycle…over and over…
…You can stop trying so hard, to make as though I am a mouthy preacher, who thinks everybody else is below him…
6) …posting about bestiality?…
My historic writing trend almost entirely ignores this subject matter…I don’t concern myself with it.
…and quoting a short clip, from a story I wrote for nifty (or assgm) many years ago, about a boy getting licked to orgasm by his (very lucky) pet dog, hardly establishes me as someone who has been known to be associated with bestiality.
You are trying very hard…and stretching so thin…
The story is fiction…though, it is inspired by real life, boyhood sexuality…(I’ll let you speculate and fantasize about that one, for a while)…
7) “BC Nursery Rhymes”…
…Yes, I know…I’ve been such a horrible, black blight on the internet, since my arrival…
Such “unspeakable” projects as BC Nursery Rhymes, have been a “terrible burden” for the internet to bare.
My apologies to all, for subjecting any minds to this silly endeavor…intended to inspire laughing…or at least a chuckle accompanied by an eye roll.
I’m almost amazed somebody found this (guess it is still out there)…and I’m amazed, that these are the only things you could come up with, given the enormous amount of writing I’ve done, over the past year.
…but, pick and choose as you will…What you’ve come across and decided to focus on, are whimsical expressions from my past…and I am not at all ashamed of any of them.
I noticed you chose Gort’s rhyme…how strategic of you!…
8) My my…you love to give out warnings, for “graphic” content, don’t you?…yet you have no qualms about re posting it…
…nor about re posting it only partially, in a selective manner…and out of context.
Let me get this correct…
You can manage to track down the most ancient content I have authored…and you can find the most recent post I have published on a blog…
…but, you cant manage to find even one single thing I’ve written and published online (the sheer volume of which could make a substantial sized book, if ever printed out), which accurately embodies the passion, thrust and intention behind my writing?
You chose nothing of substance…and tried to reduce me to that.
10) Thank you…
…When you have been around this many years, and you have seen several, good, close friends end up in prison…you start to wonder how badly you have been compromised…
…Then, you see sites like this one, and start to realize…They don’t know diddly squat about you…
I guess, my common sense over the years really has paid off.
11) Goplay (what a fun site that was) died at least half a decade ago…
…I don’t have an e-mail account with them anymore…
…but, if you want to contact me to discuss this matter further…you can e-mail me there…
To everybody else, I hope sincerely that nobody honestly thinks of me in such ways…I may have been bone headed at times, but I’ve always come here with sincere, positive intentions…and I hope that has shown through, above everything else.
All the best…
Cynthia Jean (Dale) Harvey is the person primarily responsible for “Evil-Unveiled”, and it’s many years of slander and harassment following it’s purge [as “the Wikisposure Project”] from the Perverted Justice website…But she was spearheading it, all along.
Date: May 30, 2013
This is someone who likes to throw stones, and lacks human empathy…He also likes to appeal to clichés and dogma…but he brings nothing of substance to the table.
…He sounds completely self absorbed, himself.
…Lecturing others about “not caring, what else is going on around the world”?…How rich…
This guy is someone who cracks open the bible, and starts dictating to people from it’s passages…believing that it is all authoritative…But how much time has he actually spent, reading the research?…reading the articles from the researchers, themselves? How much time has he spent, actually attempting to understand it all [along with it’s nuances], as opposed to ranting with knee jerk tantrums?
…Grimacing and scoffing, does not constitute a rebuttal…It only clarifies that you are a thrower of tantrums.
This guy is throwing several topics on the table, despite that none have anything to do with the original research…which he is allegedly responding to…
What does the research say?…
…It concludes that large numbers of males experience an involuntary, biological, sexual response, whenever they visually encounter the genitalia [or other parts] of a child’s body. This response is high enough, to where it is considered to be a normal response, within the male portion of our species.
Of course…many males conceal all of this, and don’t act on it…But, research is strongly pointing towards the conclusion, that it is still there in a very large portion of our species.
This isn’t really new information…It’s been known for decades, that males in particular have a natural response of this nature…It’s just now starting to make it into mainstream media.
…Does this guy display any awareness of any of this, at any point in his almost twenty minute tantrum?…No.
He asks “how is this even allowed to occur”, referencing a conference on the topic…and the [former, actually] existence of P.I.E. [the Pedophile Information Exchange]…And then makes a not so vague threat, of wanting to attend the next event “with a billy club”…
He wishes to dispute that pedophilia is loving and tender…but responds with “can you believe this?!”…
…I tell you what “Uprising”…You find someone competent to do an exhaustive worldwide research study, wherein they conclusively find zero cases of a loving and tender child with pedophile relationship…where they show with absolute certainty, with no question whatsoever, that loving and tender relationships like this never happen…and the method through which they are rendered naturally, biologically impossible of happening…
People asserting their “god doesn’t approve”, “sex is icky” or “this doesn’t fit into our social structure” bias, don’t count.
You manage that…and I might start to take you seriously…
…As things stand…you are just completely ignorant, and you don’t even know the issue you are attempting to talk about. You’re one of those people who likes to talk, talk, talk, attack, attack, attack…when you should be silent, set down and let other people teach you…so that you can actually learn something real and true…
…But, that doesn’t earn you followers and popularity on YouTube, does it?…Far easier to be a belligerent, contemptuous jerk, threatening violence against others…how “Christianly” of you.
He seemingly tries to dispute a quote about personal experiences of pedophiles, and how we know from our own childhoods, that children are not asexual…
…but doesn’t actually do so.
…He talks about “intellectual and big words, and giving reasoning behind these views”…taking none of it into account…Apparently, the words are too intellectual and big for him…They are just fine for any thinking person of average intelligence, I’d say.
You know…the very existence of the pedophile, who was naturally sexual as a child and personally comprehended it [which is my own experience, by the way], dispels the myth of the asexual child.
Those of us who lived this existence, all those years of our own childhood…we know that whitewashing people like us, is an outrageous lie on the part of the establishment…We know for a literal fact, that society is in deep, deep, deep denial…
…Apparently, some of you weren’t as sexual [didn’t have as strong a sexual drive?] as others of us…or, you just didn’t comprehend it in the same way as us…which is a fair enough observation, and would make for interesting, informative research, I think…
I know all of this is inconvenient for those of you who don’t like to think about it…but it’s reality…Maybe, you should learn to live in reality, like so many of us have had to?
If you need an invitation…I’ll offer one right now.
No…you are not allowed to strip us of our childhood cognition, nor our sexual identity…And, yes…many of us were [and are] acutely aware of our attractions, and our sexual intentions, as children…
…Your entirely lame mockery of this fact, does nothing to disprove it.
…I, for one, am amongst the untold numbers, who were not traumatized by sexual touch as a child…Being amongst that demographic, and knowing the inhumane hostility shown towards people like me…I demand deeper research into people like me, into our life experiences, and into why we did not turn out traumatized by sexual touch…in hopes that one day, we can move society past it’s phobia and intolerance, of people who’ve had different sexual experiences from “the majority”.
…Is this unreasonable?…Is this not a worthy pursuit?…Is it really so incomprehensible?
…You, are just fighting to keep a broken, anti-human social system afloat.
Unless this guy comes up with something unique in the remainder of his tantrum, I am done.
This video is bankrupt of any substance…Just some ignorant guy with a motor mouth, spouting off “what everybody knows”, who feels no compulsion to search, explore and grow his mind…He doesn’t even seem to comprehend, that he is scoffing at the real life experiences of real, living human beings…or why these real life experiences should be respectfully taken seriously…
…No…just more of the same old, demonizing, dehumanizing bullshit.
…And “we talk about it, as if it’s a misunderstanding of the public”?…
…The public is demonstrably ignorant about pedophilia, on a level which is outright incompetent…And you think you’re just going to scoff it off, again?…You are amongst the ignorant and incompetent.
…Lots of spooky, cliché talking points being employed, I see…lame…the hallmark of an impotent mind.
You don’t think that pedophilia and hebephilia are normal in males?…Consider this…
Across history and cultures, acceptable “sexual maturity” has ranged widely, based upon variables in the natural world, and variables in social politics…It still ranges widely, today. The primary factor tends to be, what social structure is dominant in any given culture. In general, people are expected to emulate one another, and follow the “normal” life path set forth as “proper and best”, by whomever is looked upon as authority. They want you to act and behave in certain ways, based on [typically rigid] ideological life phases…Many social structures do not make allowance for deviation, from their forceful intentions for you. They feel sexuality is incompatible with certain life phases, and punish people for experiencing such sexuality.
…Problem is…science and empirical research do not actually support this intolerance…and they’ve had to manipulate and strong arm research studies over many decades, to make it appear otherwise.
What males typically go for sexually, depends overwhelmingly on whatever is socially allowed…You can follow this trend, in every social culture you look at. You lower the age of consent to twelve, and when the stigma has faded away…tons of people will be openly taking twelve year olds to bed with them…and feeling no shame over it.
Of course, a massive amount of the male population experiences these kinds of impulses…They’re just under the surface…Just deep enough, for plausible deniability…but get rid of the prohibition and stigma, and we will find what the true statistics are…probably quickly.
Keep in mind, however…it does not make someone predatory, when they are merely attracted to someone younger and smaller than themselves, nor when they wish to share a sexual experience with such a person.
Offering something and giving pleasure to another accepting human being is not predatory behavior, no matter what age they are.
…It is an out and out filthy lie to call us predators, for being like this…
…Predators do not behave like us.
…We do not behave like predators.
People who viciously attack us…people who are constantly targeting us…You people are predators, by literal definition.
We “pedophiles” are not attacked for literally being cruel and violent towards children…That’s a stereotype and a straw man, based on a combination of rare cases and convoluted news reporting…We are attacked so viciously, because “authorities” in our culture don’t want children being sexually active…It’s sexual suppression…No allowance is made, for the natural sexual activity of children…They, and those who would otherwise be with them, are threatened to “abstain, or else”…
The stereotyping, demonization, constant shaming and threatening…these are all methods, of psychologically imposing not only a barrier on children and pedophiles…but also imposing a violently hateful intolerance, amongst the general population [most of whom don’t even know where fact diverges from fantasy, when it comes to this issue].
…So, you bring up and talk about your cliché stereotypes…about the nightmares and trauma, experienced by children who were sexually brutalized…But most of that wasn’t even done by actual pedophiles…And these things do not act as a true representation, of people like us…Those are cherry picked distortions you are throwing about.
We live in a variety of ways…Many of us are sexually celibate…Many are sexually active in legal and ethical ways…Many of us abstain, despite knowing that prohibition aimed against us is a sham.
We are not judged based on who we are, as individual human beings…
…We’re judged based on whether or not “authorities” think we get in the way…as they groom children into being mindless, working drones, keeping the “authorities” in power…and keeping the rigid social structure in place.
Our true threat as pedophiles, is to the establishment…it’s to the people who gain so much, in things being the way they are…it’s to the people who stand to lose their power, money and control, should this social structure no longer exist.
…They play off the fears and phobias of the many…telling them that children [and everybody] will be raped, pillaged and murdered, without their “authoritative” iron fist to protect them all.
Positive and benign sexuality has nothing to do with any of that…
…They don’t want to respect, honor and value pedophiles [or sexually active children, for that matter]…because they foolishly believe, they will never have to…nor that they’ll have to answer for the way they maltreat us.
People like this guy, are what is wrong with the world…They just want to walk all over other people, spit in their faces and beat them down with a billy club…Because they are too cowardly, shallow and self absorbed, to reach out and find peaceful solutions.
The social disease is not pedophiles and perverts…It’s people like this guy, who fight to keep all of us at each others throats.
…It’s time to kick these divisive shysters to the curb…and let all of us good, kind, sensible and knowledgeable people [who genuinely care about each other] build a better, more peaceful world.
Let the war mongers fight amongst themselves…We have no use for them.
Okay…I’ve had enough of wading through this brain numbing tantrum…And I’m only about half way through…If anyone else wishes to pick at this [it’s like spearing fish in a barrel]…have at it.
As a side note…”Uprising’s” video entrance is amusing enough to watch, once or twice…but it’s about a minute and fifteen seconds long…and it gets insanely annoying, fast [if you’re browsing their videos]…Short YouTube videos don’t need a long, canned introduction…It’s crazy to give them one…and probably most of this guys viewers are skipping ahead to the 1:15 mark, by now.
I wish more YouTubers of this sort would get a clue about such things…They are not so grand and glorious, that they need this kind of time wasting parade, to announce their arrival…
…A two to five second little ditty is perfect…and some people even manage to make those, painfully annoying to watch…
…Unless your making a commercial show…I wish the intros on “cottage YouTube videos” would just go away…They are senseless and annoying.
Oh good grief…And he’s evoking Satanism too?
I ask you sincerely, who deserves these words of vulgar abuse and hate, merely for daring to live, love and be loved?…
Have no doubt, that Child Love and Teen Love are a pure form of love…genuine and worthy of defense, no matter what some may say about it…
| THE WALL |
Date: November 13, 2015
My thoughts and voice are with France tonight.
Date: March 3, 2015
“Published on Mar 2, 2015
“ISIS supporters on Sunday called on jihadis around the world to kill Twitter employees because of the company’s frequent blocking of their social media accounts.
“Your virtual war on us will cause a real war on you,” reads an online post addressed to Twitter founder Jack Dorsey and shared by ISIS supporters.
The post, whose authorship is unclear, was accompanied by a digitally altered image of Dorsey in the cross sights of a gun.”
I was led to believe, that these kinds of zealots were against all things “western”…and that technology, like the internet and anything functioning on it, was looked upon as an “ungodly” threat.
Don’t they want to rid the world of these things?…Or do they just want to conquer these things, and assimilate them into a rigid, narrow purpose of servitude to themselves?
Shame on anyone, who makes a threat against others. Shame on you, isis…
…When karma comes back around on you…it is going to be very, very harsh…and you earned it for yourselves.
Date: February 10, 2015
“BEIJING (Reuters) – The Islamic State has killed three Chinese militants who joined its ranks in Syria and Iraq and later attempted to flee, a Chinese state-run newspaper said, the latest account of fighters from China embroiled in the Middle East conflict.
The paper on Thursday cited an unnamed Kurdish security official as saying that a Chinese man was “arrested, tried and shot dead” in Syria in late September by the Islamic State after he became disillusioned with jihad and attempted to return to Turkey to attend university.
“Another two Chinese militants were beheaded in late December in Iraq, along with 11 others from six countries. The Islamic State charged them with treason and accused them of trying to escape,” the official said, according to the paper.”
“TUNIS, Tunisia (AP) — In Tunis, Ghaith stands furtively on a street corner, his face masked by a hoodie, his tense eyes scanning the crowd for any hint of Islamic State militants.
He chain-smokes as he describes the indiscriminate killing, the abuse of female recruits, the discomfort of a life where meals were little more than bread and cheese or oil. He recounts the knife held to his throat by fellow fighters who demanded he recite a particular Quranic verse on Islamic warfare to prove himself.
“It was totally different from what they said jihad would be like,” said Ghaith, who asked to be identified by his first name only for fear of being killed. Ghaith eventually surrendered to Syrian soldiers.
While foreigners from across the world have joined the Islamic State militant group, some find day-to-day life in Iraq or Syria much more austere and violent than they had expected. These disillusioned new recruits also soon discover that it is a lot harder to leave than to join. The Syrian Observatory for Human Rights says the Islamic State group has killed 120 of its own members in the past six months, most of them foreign fighters hoping to return home.
The number of French returnees has recently increased, their enthusiasm dented by the reality of militant life and by the allied bombing campaign, according to a top French security official who spoke anonymously because the issue is sensitive. Some foreign recruits have written home to say they are being held against their will, the official said.
The Islamic State group works to prevent recruits from leaving from the time they join.
The first step is removing their passports and identity documents.”
It appears many gung ho jihadists from western countries are wanting to come home, because they have become every bit as much a hostage of these terrorists, as anyone kidnapped and held prisoner by them.
The “Islamic State” and it’s “jihad” are both lies.
It is tragic to see anyone at all, let alone our young people, walk into their own death…because they don’t really even understand what they are getting themselves into…nor that they are being lied too.
Western “jihadists” are patsies for the hardline terrorists…Once they arrive, they are trapped…their lives are under threat, even by their so called allies and leaders…They will be sent off to the frontlines to die first, or die in suicide bombing…When they wise up and try to escape, they get accused of treason and murdered.
…Is this really something anybody wants to sign up for?
Hey…I also found this video, from The Young Turks…