Category Archives: The Vile Files

iilluminaughtii Claims To Tell Us, “What You Need to Know About MAPs”…


Date: July 28, 2021

01) LINK

“Welcome to the Corporate Casket, a semiweekly series where bad businesses go to die. We will discuss any and everything from bad charities, terrible CEOs, and businesses that have a lot to hide.”

Why are there so relative few decent people on the internet, who attempt to be humane and fair?

Why is it with these people, that it’s always about kicking and attacking other groups, who are literally doing nothing more than trying to survive in this world?

Why do they always latch onto another group which is socially vulnerable, while trying to make it all about themselves…all about how the survival of others supposedly “hurts them”…all about their own virtue signaling…and all about stereotyping…and all about fear mongering?…

…and just as important…all about using the berating and dehumanization of others, to make personal financial gain…Living Off The Degradation And Destruction Of Other Human Beings

Why are they so eager to hurt other people, instead of listening and talking…understanding?…

Between the video thumbnail and the introduction…this one cannot even wait twenty seconds, to expose the fundamental nature and quality of their video.

…and this one does not disappoint, in hitting all the bases of smarmy, gutless tactics…but, it’s a PYCC [Professional YouTube Content Crapper]…a person/group who craps out content for money…so the bar is extremely low to begin with…and MAPs are such an easy demographic to dehumanize and shit all over…so…no unexpected content or tactics here.

I notice how she seems to think…that lifting quotes off of a website intentionally designed to drag “pro contact” people, painting them in the worst light while not allowing them to speak for themselves, is somehow “on the level”…

The old “Rome and Greece did it, so it’s okay” red herring appears here…

Since this one doesn’t care enough to actually understand the context of the argument…let me explain…

We generally get barraged with ignorant claims that intergenerational relationships have never been accepted during human history…We with a bit of knowledge on ancient history know this to be absolutely false…and we mention the fact that it has been socially common in several major cultures throughout human history [Rome, Greece, Sparta, France, New Guinea, etc]…several of these cultures quite highly regarded and celebrated, even to this day…and they thrived to their peak while doing it, too.

Of course…as soon as you prove them wrong, they ignore the egg all over their faces, refuse to acknowledge what you just did there, and spin it into some B.S. claim “you think things were perfect back then”, or “you think we should be living an existence like that of ancient cultures”…or “you cannot conform such practices, in line with modern morals and what we believe about human sexuality”…or my favorite, “you think we should allow barbarity and rape, the likes of which happened in ancient cultures”.

It takes some true bankruptcy of integrity, to respond like that…and yet, it’s pretty well all we ever see out of these sorts.

I also notice how these sorts of PYCCs always go out, digging up the most controversial and dramatic content they can find, to feature it in front of their large audience as “representation” of MAPs…”representation” of what’s been going on with MAPs, the last decade or so…

You know what sorts of MAPs never get featured in these kinds of dehumanizing, hate speech videos?…

…MAPs like me…MAPs like Nigel Oldfield [RIP]…people like Kamil Beylant…and certainly not professional researchers, who actually agree with us…

…people with a very long history of being intelligent, informed, fair and active in this community, for the betterment of everyone’s lives…but the reality of our existence and history, is not convenient to the dehumanizing, blood lust narrative people like this push.

They just want their adoring fans to send them money, for shitting all over other human beings, and declaring that other human beings don’t have human rights…For releasing yet more, disgusting hatred and cruelty into this world.

This world rewards the ugliest, most destructive, hateful and cowardly of this world…and here, we see it in action.

This is why the human species is a failed species…This is why most human cultures are failed cultures…It’s why YouTube is a failed internet platform…

…It elevates and amplifies the absolute worst, cruelest and most hateful among us.

…Enjoy your blood money “iilluminaughtii”…but don’t ever pretend, that is not exactly what it is…and know that many of us see you for what you are.

Give me a world full of MAPs, experiencing an extreme drought of “iilluminaughtii”s any day.

…That would be a world actually worth living in.

This world we exist in today, which “you good people” have fashioned and touted…people are terminating themselves left and right, all the time…just to get the hell out of it, and away from it…because “this” world you think is so “morally correct”…in reality, is utter shit.

I shall now go back to working towards making the world a more humane, united and understanding place…

…a personal, life long work “iilluminaughtii” has no care of mentioning, while profiting off of the dehumanization of Minor Attracted People.

Some of us actually care about lessening the suffering in this world.

We even see hints towards the “LGBTQ Owns The Expression of Pride” sentiment…”MAPs aren’t allowed the bare expression of community or belonging, or a good nature”…

This person is offended, because we stand up in defense of our own humanity, and against lies spoken against us.

People like this enrage me to my core…and I’m going to stop right here, because it’s taken all I have to refrain from talking about this person with expletives.

I am just so sick and fed up with this level of contempt and arrogance.

I ask you sincerely, who deserves these words of vulgar abuse and hate, merely for daring to live, love and be loved?…

Have no doubt, that Child Love and Teen Love are a pure form of love…genuine and worthy of defense, no matter what some may say about it…


“Take a stand against pedophiles!”…


Date: December 26, 2019

01) Take a stand against pedophiles!

“Some amusing video that was once uploaded on YouTube.”

So, he was abusive to MAPs on Twitter, got his account terminated, and this is his melt down over it?

This guy is unhinged.

I ask you sincerely, who deserves these words of vulgar abuse and hate, merely for daring to live, love and be loved?…

Have no doubt, that Child Love and Teen Love are a pure form of love…genuine and worthy of defense, no matter what some may say about it…


Janice’s Journal: Pedophiles Deserve Death Penalty…


Date: November 05, 2018

01) Janice’s Journal: Pedophiles Deserve Death Penalty

“The son of Rev. Billy Graham, Rev. Franklin Graham, declared on National Public Radio this weekend [September 06, 2018] that pedophiles deserve the death penalty. He also declared that we are a nation of laws.

Not only is Rev. Graham’s first statement outrageous, it is undermined and contradicted by his second statement. Why? Because the laws in many states do not include the death penalty. Furthermore, most of the 31 states that do have a death penalty law do not apply that law to an individual who is convicted solely of a sex offense.

It is noteworthy that Rev. Graham made this outrageous statement during an interview that was not on the topic of either pedophiles or the death penalty. Instead, the topic of the interview was advertised as an evangelist’s view of President Donald Trump.”

I ask you sincerely, who deserves these words of vulgar abuse and hate, merely for daring to live, love and be loved?…

Have no doubt, that Child Love and Teen Love are a pure form of love…genuine and worthy of defense, no matter what some may say about it…


The Sociopath’s Burden…


Date: December 11, 2017

01) NWR White Rabbit+++ Elsagate 008 Twitter Pedophiles

“A group of open pedophiles are operating on social media and twitter, and have finally come to roost. They’re advocating many various formats to normalize this dangerous disorder.”

This degree of gall is quite epic…though hardly unseen previously…

…Most people just don’t make such a weepy video, trying to peddle themselves off as an “unjustified victim” of a website suspension, right after they’ve used said website to make [or imply] mass death threats [via hanging] against MAPs.

Potentially, it was a threat of genocide.

…And “Network Radio” [a friend of Mellisa, who’s all huffy and outraged about this, herself] cannot figure out why Twitter’s gotta be that way towards him, when “obviously”, it should have been the targeted victims of this sociopath, who “deserved” the fate he most clearly earned for himself.

…Hell…He should have been banned from Twitter permanently, for this behavior. Twitter needs to finally start cracking down on the terrorists who use it’s platform…And yet, they allow this “Network Radio” guy to continue using the service, after making such sickening threats and comments.

People wonder why so many get sick and tired of Twitters inaction and ineffective policies…These sorts flagrantly violate not just the Twitter TOS, but the very basis of human decency…And Twitter just cant seem to keep these people under control.

Death threats, and threats of violence, should never be tolerated on Twitter.

…And we have these people, who blame everybody but themselves…for their own, personally chosen actions against others.

This guy even goes so far, as to have sad, slow, emotion tugging music playing in the background…

…Can you believe the incredible gall of this guy?

Yeah…He hadn’t seen any of this before, didn’t know any of the people…But, that doesn’t stop him from promptly “laying down the law”, employing red herrings, and parading his violent ignorance all over the place…towards people, who weren’t even doing what he claims they were doing, no less…

…Some days, you’ve got to sort of feel sorry for the Verpeds…and all the insanity that gets dumped on them, by the endless hordes of mindless mouths.

“Network Radio

@rohnson_john @pureACandDW @theneverlandian @TheHoneybee_ We will hang them if the time ever comes. We are the human race. And
we’ve gotten this far, surely it’s a numbers game, but we as a collective mitigate these threats. This is where the buck stops: All pedophiles will hang.”

Oh, that poor, little lamb!…Why, oh why, is Twitter and the world “picking on him”?!!

…This is just such a hard one, for some people to figure out.

Meanwhile…decent humanity shouldn’t have much trouble with this “puzzle”.

“(Network Radio ©networkradious

Whatever stupid labels these sick folks wish to give themselves, they are still sick and they need to realize they’re a danger to society. They should stand out like a sore thumb. And they should not be allowed to disguise themselves with kid handles. Should be Pedo-Joe/Pedo-Jane”

This is dehumanization…It’s hate speech, by true definition…

And he want’s MAPs labeled and marked, also?…What?…Like the pink star?…

…And to think…mass hanging, is what this guy thinks is ethical, for those he claims to be “sick”?…

…Gee…I think he wont be getting any noble piece prizes.

I ask you sincerely, who deserves these words of vulgar abuse and hate, merely for daring to live, love and be loved?…


A film created in its entirety by Gordon Buchan…


Date: July 21, 2017

01) A film created in its entirety by Gordon Buchan

“This film was created in its entirety by Gordon Buchan, of Maryhill Glasgow, founder of Nonce Apologists Exposed facebook page.
The image with the moving lips is Mr N Oldfield. The spoken words are those of Mr Gordon Buchan”

For a very long time, I’ve personally witnessed a barrage of outright violent content, aimed at Nigel Oldfield…Most of it has been demented and sick.

I don’t know exactly who has been behind every incident of it…but one example showed Nigel’s face on a body, of a person who was about to be murdered.

I ask you sincerely, who deserves these words of vulgar abuse and hate, merely for daring to live, love and be loved?…

Have no doubt, that Child Love and Teen Love are a pure form of love…genuine and worthy of defense, no matter what some may say about it…


No More “Age Verification” Free Video Embedding…


Date: March 23, 2017

I’ve stopped using the embedding code, that sidesteps the YouTube age verification.

Potentially, you’ve noticed that a lot of the embedded videos from YouTube are all giving a playback error?

For years, I’ve used the embedding code that is supposed to let anyone watch a video outright, without worrying about logging into YouTube to verify their age…This was done as a courtesy to my visitors.

As always…YouTube has recently made changes to their website…and from the looks of it, they’ve disabled this method of embedding…whether intentional, or not.

This means for me, that I have already dropped the usage of it…To be honest, it was annoying having to deal with a few things about it, anyway…I’m glad to be done with it.

But, now a ton of embedded videos won’t play on this blog…Fortunately, this is why I’ve always included a direct link to the YouTube video page…So, there should be no real issue…Just click on the link…Watch it on YouTube.

All the best…

– Steve


LGBTQ-Pedophilia Mainstreaming of Pedophilia .WTF?…


Sub-Sections:| Perverted Justice Journal | The Vile Files | Anonymous Hate Watch | Judith Reisman Watch |


Date: January 14, 2017

01) LGBTQ-Pedophilia Mainstreaming of Pedophilia .WTF?

You know what’s so messed up about people like this guy?…

…It’s that they don’t even understand the people they are attacking…yet this does nothing to stop them, from saying all of these ridiculous, disgusting, dehumanizing things about other people.

Now…for sure…he does touch on one or two things, I rightly should expand upon…But, on the whole…this guy is convoluting several widely different issues…and he doesn’t have a coherent understanding of what he’s trying to put into words.

I don’t think I’m ever going to get past the fact…that a guy [Todd Nickerson] has come out as a MAP, in order to address social stereotypes on MAPs…while deeply associated with a group that condemns all adult minor sexual relations, and echoing that groups viewpoints…and you have all these people going half out of their minds, claiming that Todd is ultimately there to legalize sex between adults and children…

…What this means…is that what is factually going on here, has completely went over the heads of numerous many people…And they’re all talking hyper and frantic amongst themselves, working each other up into some kind of panic.

…Are they simply incapable of the cognition and dialogue?

…And what are we to do about these sorts of people?…I mean, we can ignore them…but it seems like such a waste.

Oh, look!…He’s another person living in a fantasy world, where the government is writing laws to serve us MAPs…All this in the face, of the atrocities these governments have systematically committed against us MAPs…He probably imagines we are secretly controlling the government…

This degree of disconnect, is just staggering.

…And you’re another person, who’s trying to frame this as though children’s rights and MAPs rights are in conflict…when they never have been.

A question I want to pose to this guy:

You claim that we MAPs cause injury, harm, violence…whatever the word was you chose…

…You can cherry pick bad news stories, of children who’ve been raped, brutalized…even murdered…A portion of those news stories may even be about pedophiles…But these are not representative of typical MAP behavior or ethics.

How do you justify claiming that MAPs [“pedophiles”] cause harm?…Who have I, as a pedophile MAP, harmed in any way?…How can you generalize in this way?

I have harmed nobody, at all.

Countless MAPs, will harm nobody at all…

…You have no idea, the extent to which we MAPs have bent over backwards, just to cater to the laws, customs and paranoia, of people like you…So many of us don’t even live a full life, because of this…Many MAPs have suffered dearly, because of this imposition and trespass, at the hands of people who lack the capacity to share empathy.

…And all you can manage, is calling us monsters, when some of us offer ourselves for a public dialogue?

No, guy…the people you are specifically referring too, are not talking about normalizing pedophilia…This is something that people like you have made up.

In close:

You don’t get to pass yourself off as “the good guy”, when you just got done completely misrepresenting everything here.

The people you’ve decided to target and talk trash about, are literally pushing for things like support groups, social support structures to prevent MAPs from violating laws [which includes sex with children], and safe access to mental health care for MAPs in need of it.

They actually condemn the very notion, of society changing it’s laws regarding sex between adults and children…But does that make any difference to you?

…So much more fun and satisfying to kick up a fuss, and pretend like you’re being a hero?

Certainly…we have cognitive capacity, which puts our sense of morality in a different state than that of the other animals…Though, I’d be careful in saying ours is “above” theirs…In some ways, it’s more refined…In some ways, it’s over analytic…In some ways, it’s terminally paranoid…

…Most other animals have the luxury, of being able to just go about the business of survival and living, without overactive minds getting in the way of it all. There may be a brutality and harshness in their existence…but it’s an honest existence, that hasn’t been sullied by false interpretations of violence…Their violence is real…not imagined. There is something beautifully refreshing, about that level of honesty.

…Humans are not so honest…and they relentlessly tear each other down, based on little more than differences in how we live, look, think and speak.

…Our evolution in this regard has not been one of progress…It’s merely been a shift in style and focus.

We humans can say “that is probably not a good thing”…yes…And why do you presume, that MAPs are in any way lacking this cognition, or lacking the resolve and moral compos to refrain from doing things they’ve judged as bad?

By my judgment…sticking my erection [or anything] up the anus of a child, is absolutely unacceptable…And as a MAP, I have lived a life of several decades, having no trouble avoiding my erection ending up in anybody’s anus.

What you suggest about us…is that we somehow lack the capacity to control ourselves…You don’t even know what you are talking about…Stop trying to dehumanize us.

Who is going to benefit from the acceptance of MAPs?

…MAP’s, yes…but also, anybody who in any way has been spared the fallout and experience, of any person [MAP, or otherwise] who has been driven over the edge.

If we had a more intelligent way of socially embracing MAP’s…it’s very conceivable that many of the high profile cases that went into creating things like Megan’s Law, likely would not have happened at all.

A radically different social approach to MAP’s, and human sexuality, would only serve to protect people.

The left promoting degeneracy, and hating the family?

Oh, good grief…

…Do you understand the concept, of tearing the boil open…and bringing the difficult subject of discussion to the surface, in order to fully understand and address it?…Because I don’t believe you do.

If there is any hate for the family…I’ve only witnessed this hate, from within the confines of a religious family, headed by a heterosexual marriage…Because you “normal” folk have enough hate for it, to tear your own families apart, at a staggering level…whether they split up [which is common] or not.

The left doesn’t promote degeneracy…

…The left recognizes [usually], that the people the government taps into for taxes, public service, military service, etc, etc, etc…include the exact same people, who are homosexual, bisexual, etc, etc, etc…and that they have no valid ground, on which to deny these people a voice in the creation and implementation of law, and public services.

Gay marriage came about…because most people got sick of the government telling productive members of society, which it exists upon the backs of, that they cannot have equivalent rights with everybody else. For an increasing number of the U.S. population…taxation without representation, has been brought to a stop.

…This country, it’s laws and customs, do not belong to “you”, just because you imagine yourself to be normal…or typical.

…You should not expect it to cater to you, and your sensibilities, alone.

…You’re not the only one here, who has to scratch out an existence, buddy.

There are plenty of people here, who don’t need your intolerance getting in the way of their ability to live a meaningful life.

…Okay…I’ve written enough on this one.


UnderstandingConspiracy: He Doesn’t Like Virtuous Pedophiles…


Date: January 10, 2017

01) VIRTUOUS PAEDOPHILES?! The world and its people are very sick.

“Understand this…Paedophilia is being normalised by our mainstream media.”

This one is mind numbingly painful, because UnderstandingConspiracy is a one trick pony…Lot’s of sneering and “I doubt it!”…The substance and dialogue are nowhere to be found…and there is certainly no signs of deeper human empathy, or respect for MAP humans.

…Instead, we get treated to his notions about satanic abuse, brainwashing propaganda and religion…

This guy is actually presented with the textbook, medical definition of “pedophile” [or “pedophilia”, I forget which…and I’m not hunting it down right now]…But he somehow knows better, rejecting the established and historic definition, in preference of his own opinion.

He confronts the fact, that even some child protection groups are supportive of Virtuous Pedophiles…and he just throws out more of his psychological impotence to act as a wall…It sheilds him and his audience, from ever having to genuinely respond?

I’m not giving a whole lot of response to this…For a half hour video, there is barely anything to respond too…About the best I can do, is elaborate on things he is scoffing at…But I really don’t want to dissect the Todd Nickerson article and video…Not right now.

This UnderstandingConspiracy guys video is honestly all about himself…And he probably doesn’t even realize why.

One small, humorous note:

I’m kind of astonished that I’m not seeing people jumping out of their skin, upon encountering Todd’s pants-less picture in that article…The one with his legs on full display, and his underwear clad crotch peeking out at us all…

I have to admit…I thought it was a very awkward thing to place in an article like this one…And to my mind, it’s something of an elephant in the room.

On a personal note…I’m not displeased…It’s a very cute picture…I just don’t get how people are processing it, as they’re sifting that article for anything to nit pick.

…It’s like an obvious joke on the mainstream population, setting there in plain sight.

I have no idea how it is, they didn’t have second thoughts.

I ask you sincerely, who deserves these words of vulgar abuse and hate, merely for daring to live, love and be loved?…

Have no doubt, that Child Love and Teen Love are a pure form of love…genuine and worthy of defense, no matter what some may say about it…


RangaMasterRace: Hatchet Piece Propaganda & Dehumanizing, Threatening, Violent Sociopathic Message…


Date: January 02, 2017

01) Virtuous Paedophiles? Not Really…RMR#6

“This is why you need to practice what you preach, because cynical arseholes like me are going to call you out on it. Like in the case of Todd Nickerson”

This guy is another “color by numbers”, tongue lasher…He hits many of the clichés, and offers nothing unique or of substance…His video is not constructive…It’s just dehumanizing…And he cannot figure out why anybody at all, would call him out on his dishonest, violent behavior.

Do notice how he’s accused a “pedophile apologist” of having some kind of superiority complex, all in the shadow of everything he has smugly spewed at MAPs…These sorts are very rarely self aware enough, to comprehend the sheer depth of their own staggering irony.

…Psssst!…RangaMasterRace!…It’s because of your brazen dishonesty, your demeaning and dehumanization of MAPs, and your thinly veiled threat to beat another human being to death, with a barbedwire baseball bat…The gun comment was crossing a line, also…Personally, I would be embarassed if anybody had to point this obvious fact out to me.

Anyone with even a modest sense of personal honesty, should be able to recognize that Todd’s “babysitting story” is something he is recalling from a more formative time in his past…Hence, it’s one thing he has built his ethics and behavior out of.

…And what did he do?…

…He became aroused in the company of a young girl…removed himself to the privacy of the bathroom, and masturbated…

…And RangaMasterRace still has something to nit pick at, despite that what Todd did was objectively not wrong.

…Todd goes on to tell how he stopped babysitting, after that…though RangaMasterRace gives no acknowledgement to this. Way to cherry pick, RangaMasterRace!

…And we have another “bullet to the head” sociopath.

In my opinion, RangaMasterRace should lose all rights to internet access, for incitement and encouragement of murder and violence.

It’s easy for outsiders to look at MAPs, and scoff when we talk about being a persecuted minority, and discriminated against…because from the privileged place they sit, they have no concept of what the life of a MAP entails…or what MAPs spend a lifetime confronting.

When you are a MAP…the world is against you, no matter what you do [or refrain from doing]…Most of us come to this realization, at a young age…early adolescence…and live the rest of our lives with it.

Pushing back is not about wanting to be elevated to sainthood, for our past suffering…

…It’s about protecting others from having to go through these same, lifelong struggles and injuries.

…And all RangaMasterRace can come up with in response, is “shoot em in the head”?

Pedophilia is a sexual orientation…It’s how many MAPs are sexually oriented, biologically…

…Just because pedophilia is inconvenient to the current social structure, that doesn’t stop it from being a sexual orientation.

Legal technicalities are legal technicalities…So what?

A lot of people will say ugly, nasty things about us…and even redefine words and concepts, so that MAPs no longer fit within them…So what?

…That does not reflect upon the natural, objective reality of the situation…

…It just means there are a lot of people suffering from cognitive dissonance…or cognitive distortion…or they are malicious, habitual liars…

…To be fair…a vast many of you haven’t the first clue what you’re even talking about…and you’re just a sea of unknowing people, endlessly repeating each other…So, there is that possibility, also.

Biological age [or age difference] does not stop how you are sexually oriented…nor does it invalidate the orientation…It’s still how one is sexually oriented…hence the term “sexual orientation”.

RangaMasterRace is trying to employ the exact same tactic I’ve discussed here, a number of times…

…He’s trying to claim that MAPs cannot use objectively correct terminologies to describe themselves, because only the socially protected groups are allowed to use those…He doesn’t want us to have recognized social standing…and certainly not to be a protected group…[then he’d not have MAPs to look down upon, abuse and threaten]…

“Pedophilia is a mental disorder.”

Well…good luck with actually proving that…because it’s based on nothing more than popular culture bias…

…If homosexuals are just fine to you, today…well, guess what…they were “mentally ill” a handful of decades back…It’s a disgustingly subjective matter, RangaMasterRace.

The way MAPs are maltreated today, is far more about politics, social control and fear of “the other”, than it has ever been about combating danger towards children.

Oh…by the way RangaMasterRace…I took a copy of your violent, abusive smear video, for archival.

Inside The Life Of A ‘Virtuous’ Paedophile

I ask you sincerely, who deserves these words of vulgar abuse and hate, merely for daring to live, love and be loved?…

Have no doubt, that Child Love and Teen Love are a pure form of love…genuine and worthy of defense, no matter what some may say about it…


Attack of the Sith: The Cheapest Attack is Always the Easiest…


Date: October 29, 2016

Note: There are two different names these were posted under, but they all came from the same IP address…It’s the same person.

To the person calling themselves “TheSith” [a curious and telling character, to choose for ones self]…I am genuinely sorry for whatever it is you experienced…Do not mistake…I am not an individual of the nature which you accuse.

This blog exists for positive and productive dialogue…I do not approve comments left on this blog, of the nature which you have left.

At most…they are either deleted or I take screen captures, and add them to my collection of hate speech and online terrorism…potentially to show up in this posting series, at some future date.

So…if you are not prepared for a respectful, goodwill dialogue, with expectations that we can bridge some sort of gap between us…then I would suggest it’s best to keep these things to yourself.

You’ve expressed both a knowledge and will to set into motion at least one homicide, and directly commit another.

You need to get your head on right.

…And do not place me in a position where I have to guess, whether or not I need to report you to the police.


“You know what would be so fun? If I could lock you in a secluded area in a tiny building and slowly torture and eventually let you die of your injuries. I hope you linger on for weeks or months and I hope it’s hell. That’s what I plan on doing to the pedophile who raped me. You all deserve what I’ll to do him. You’re not human beings, you’re monsters who don’t deserve to live. I hope a law is passed that makes it legal to kill you people out in the open.”

I forgive you.

But onlookers of this post should know…what is expressed here…is the message, mindset and cultural atmosphere, which I grew up in…It took me many years of struggling, and suicidal tendencies, to work my way through that alone…I am a survivor, by the most stark and raw definition…

…Later years of my life have seen me trying to build a bridge…build some sort of a way forward…And yes…I have experienced severe discrimination, multiple times over…and I’ve witnessed many additional incidents…

The person who is trying to deny me, that I’ve ever been discriminated against…is dumping onto me, precisely the sort of discrimination, torment and abuse I’ve frequently spoken of.

That type of behavior is psychological rape…It’s not something that just goes away…It’s something you carry forever.

I have chosen to rise above all of this, and take the high road. I have dedicated myself, to seeking the better way forward.


““To those who have suffered sexual assault of whatever kind…and who have suffered dearly in life, haunted by this event…Know that you have my sincere sympathy, my empathy and my compassion for what you had to endure…”

No you don’t actually feel sorry for these people. To things like you stories of horrific assaults are just wank material for you. Hell one of your pedophile friends on you YouTube channel asked a victim to detail her sexual abuse. I guess watching kids get raped on Tor doesn’t get him hard anymore. His YouTube name is ******, he looks like a mongoloid with red hair. I made sure to spread his profile around to people who are willing to contact him and tell him what he outta do. Which of course is kill himself, he won’t be missed and neither will you. As to your buddy ************ from Phoenix, Arizona…..well there’s a few militia groups and outlaw gangs out there and I’m sure they’d just love to get their hands on him. He’s weak, pale and scrawnier than a hardcore meth-head. I doubt he’d survive whatever is done to him. But isn’t that the plan? Because of people like you I have the job that I have, out of all the hundreds of kids I’ve seen only 36 were abused by “child molesters.” The rest were attacked by pedophiles, pedophiles who caused lasting physical and mental injuries. Injuries so horrific some adults don’t even recover let alone a 3-year old who is repeatedly raped. But to your kind it wasn’t rape it was love. The pedophile that raped her said it was love that made him rip apart a little girl. Pedophiles who drove 15 of these kids to kill themselves, deaths that I personally witnessed. I’ve witnessed countless other suicide attempts by crazed victims who want their nightmares to stop. Because of your kind 15 kids at the hospital I work for are dead. 16 if you count the adoptive sister I lost. She killed herself when she was 10 years old not too long after I walked into an old run down shed after hearing her screaming and crying and telling the two pedophiles raping her to stop. Because of your kind she’s dead. I held her while she died and I will not forget that. I was 15-years old when she died, I still have the clothes I was wearing when she bled out. Her blood is still soaked into them and some days I have to struggle to not break down sobbing at that memory. Your kind is a blight that must be purged. If only Hitler had killed you all, if only he could’ve killed you all, if only he didn’t target Jews and Romanis. I hope someone finds you and kills you and each and every one of your baby raping friends too. Your kind is one without remorse or sympathy, you’re incapable of understanding right from wrong or caring about the pain you cause others.
People like you destroy lives. What makes you think you deserve anything good in life? You deserve death. I’m not a religious man, religion is false. But if Hell is real I hope you burn there, I hope you suffer every imaginable horror and humiliation both known and unknown. The day is coming when we’ll be able to openly kill your kind again. I can’t wait for this to happen.”

You have no power to put words into my mouth…And nobody of integrity will be swayed by your attempt.

I am an ally of victims, just as many other MAPs are.

What you have offered here, will help nobody…It will improve nothing…It will only release hate, abuse and fear into this world.

No one who cares about victims, behaves in that way.

In addition, I’d like to point out…

…Just because I happen to have a few YouTube accounts, does not make me part of a “pedophile borg”…I cant control, nor will I answer for, what every other person online does.

I’ve openly condemned bad behavior amongst MAPs, for years…But I don’t normally even go into the cesspool, which is the YouTube comments section…So, I’m not likely to even see, whatever it is you are alleging to have happened.

You’ve referenced an alleged bad behavior of someone on YouTube…yet you’ve failed to give any context, or citation.

Having dealt with far too many abusive fanatics over the years…I know better than to just take these statements at face value…I’ve witnessed real situations where the fanatic, and the person behind the behavior they were screaming about, were one and the same.

Too many of you think you can entirely make up stories about us, and even stage false acts attributed to us…All because you think something entitles you.

…And, you are confused…I don’t allow comments on any of my YouTube channels…You are thinking of someone else.

As for your loss…you have my condolences…

…And as for the rest…I forgive you, again.

However…I am not a pacifist, where it comes to people attacking my person…

…Anyone envisioning a physical confrontation with me, would do well to keep this in mind.

Oh…and for your information…What I masturbate to, is thoughts of kissing the naked bodies of prepubescent boys…and personal fantasies of sucking them off to orgasm…Sometimes, I imagine myself the boy…And sometimes, I am a boy with other boys.

…Other times, I go back into my own memories, of romps I was pulled into by my cousins…I often embellish and expand upon the reality of that history…But it’s a private fantasy…It’s mine to do with, as I please.

I’ve never masturbated to violent stories [or porn] in my entire life. That sort of thing has nothing to do with my sexual orientation.


““…Victims who are in my category, do not sincerely have any of these things.”


“Truth be told, people like me show a tremendous deal more respect towards victims of sexual violence, than most…”

Actually you don’t. Your kind tells them bullshit like “I’m sorry you were raped, I wouldn’t have hurt you like that.” Which is a pedophiles’ way of saying you would have tried to politely rape them, you wouldn’t have taken no for an answer. You are a liar.

“At the very least, I respect those victims enough not to lie to them…Which puts me well ahead of the status quo.”

Actually you lie to them by saying you understand them. When in actuality your kind just likes to read stories of brutal sexual assault on children because it’s the only thing that gets you off. Further proof that you’re untrustworthy creatures.

“I am neither feeding people fantasy, nor trying to saddle others with false victimhood and all the psychological baggage that comes with it.”

Says the faggot crying about being a victim of discrimination. You are not discriminated against but keep crying about and you’ll get it.”

You remind me of a certain BoyLover from BoyChat…

…No matter what you’re talking about, or trying to communicate…it’s always the basis for a confrontation with him…He always picks something to dismiss, and replace with his own slanted re-interpretation. So…you’re never entitled to your own words or voice, around him…You’re never entitled to speak for yourself…You’re just a subject for him, to do with as he pleases…

…Which makes it impossible, to have any coherent or meaningful exchange with him…And he often uses this tactic, to cause turmoil on the board.

I see exactly what you are doing…It’s amongst the oldest tactics in the book…And I am immune to these tactics.

You don’t understand much of anything about MAPs [or pedophiles], as an overall group…And if you worked at a hospital for those kinds of abuse cases, as you claim…then you have got to realize, that you have lived in an unnaturally high concentration of the worst cases, which were collected and brought to youYour experience and resulting viewpoint, are grossly skewed.

I am sorry for what all you have had to see, in your particular, uncommon setting…But I will not allow that, to wrongly represent people like myself.

People do bad things in this world…We are not all, those people.

…And I don’t “cry about discrimination”…I speak about the realities of it, and the impact it has.

The difference between someone like me and someone like you…is that I want these cycles of violence and abuse to stop…and I clearly understand why they need to…while you are just shooting at the world, and the phantoms you see.

Your path leads nowhere.

I forgive you, again…

If you have any genuine intent, of ever sparing a child from the fate you speak of…then you need to come to terms with the fact…that MAPs must be able to come out, and live safely in public…This is the only way to have any chance of knowing, when a MAP may be going astray…

Your threats don’t work…In fact, they make things worse.

Understand it…Own it…And correct your behavior.


“My motivations are due to anger and frustration of seeing you shitstaints get away with horrific crimes again and again and again. I’ve had enough.”

You don’t know me…You don’t know most of us MAPs…

…And we’ve already established that you have had an abnormally high exposure, to the worst sorts of sexual brutality.

…You’ve clearly displayed right here, that you cannot handle it.

You are exactly the sort of person who should stay out of these discussions, because you have clearly lost touch with objective reality [to say nothing of your own humanity].

I would suggest that you should get out of the field you are in, altogether…Because it is clearly destroying you.

I forgive you, again…

…But that does not mean, what you have done here is alright…

I am a human being…a rather good, kind human being…I have done none of the things you accuse me of…

…I deserve an apology, for your foul behavior against me.

…Are you big enough to give one?

– Steve Diamond

For The Record:

Brutality of any form, is not love.

Lust, while morally neutral, is not itself love.

Laying yourself on the line for another, is love.

Being there for another, is love.

Sharing a life of joy, is love.

Humans of all ages, have a vast capacity for love.

…All humans are entitled to freely love and be loved.

Now…Is there anything I have left out, which is not crystal clear?

I ask you sincerely, who deserves these words of vulgar abuse and hate, merely for daring to live, love and be loved?…

Have no doubt, that Child Love and Teen Love are a pure form of love…genuine and worthy of defense, no matter what some may say about it…