Hate for Antis?

Hate for Antis? Note: “Anti” is one general term, used to describe people who attack us. There is much anger at antis, yes… You have to understand something… …For us minor attracted people, we have spent our lives being subjected to the relentless trash talking aimed at us. This trash talking comes from people and groups, which are anti [against us]…and this trash talking…this saturation of propaganda and hyperbole…this behavior has had a deeply negative impact not only on the larger social culture, but on the personal lives of us. We, as a demographic, have never deserved this hostility and cruel abuse…As individuals, the same holds true…We were not born deserving this inhumane abuse…We did not deserve, to grow up under this relentless psychological assault…And where some of us may break down and go astray, I would argue that this is more the doing of current social conditioning [and the fact that the system is intent on beating you down and keeping you down, in the worst possible ways], than it has ever been “our true nature”. When it comes to anties [groups or individuals]…they are on the main stage…they are in front of the cameras and microphones…they overwhelmingly dictate the nature, of what ends up in the media…including the news, and even entertainment. They are like some bizarrely anointed priesthood of an undefined fundamentalist religion, existing off the backs [and suffering] of both victims of sexual violence, and that of social outcasts [specifically those labeled “sexual deviants”] …finding the roots of their power in the anger and confusion of the victims, mixed with the naivety of the masses [who are easily misled]. These people and groups, have essentially created a perceived place for themselves…where they are “above questioning”…And many people are offended, when you contest what they claim…or question their own motives. It is as though they have stopped being fallible humans, in the eyes of many. It is as though, most people cannot seem to understand…these people can have some amount of ill or misguided intent, motivating them…They can be deeply and gravely mistaken…They can be blind and unempathetic…They can cause severe damage and suffering, to other humans who don’t deserve their aggression…They can have ideological social intentions, which reach well beyond their outwardly stated goal of “protecting the vulnerable”…They can, in fact, have much darker intentions behind what they are doing… …One part of the problem…is that so many people seem to think it “offensive”, that such a thing even be pointed out and brought to the surface…The subject matter gets “defended as untouchable”…so that things cannot be changed in any meaningful way. I know that I cannot even properly put into words…just how deeply personally offensive it has been to me…facing this degree of outright contempt, inherent in such shallow dismissiveness…All the while knowing, that people like me have been sacrificial lambs [in countless ways], to this very same system. The fact that this system believes it does not even have to acknowledge us, let alone justify itself in all that it is doing…is enough for me to demand its immediate dismanteling…It is far beyond enough for me to recognize it as wicked and evil, in the truest meaning of those words. …Now, you have to keep in mind…many of these exact same people who have spent decades trash talking, intimidating, menacing, threatening and spreading false information about people like us…they have simultaneously been spending their time, resources and energy, attempting to enforce 100% censorship, on the people they have been unjustly attacking…In other words, they seek [or outright demand] a “zero tolerance” social policy, wherever it comes to people like us coming out into the open and speaking for ourselves…or worse still, disputing and disproving what they claim to be true… One thing has become painfully clear…The grounds they stand upon, from which they so viciously attack us harmless minorities…those grounds are so fragile and void of integrity, that the people standing on them must sabotage all voices of dispute and protest…lest they themselves be exposed. People like myself have lived their whole lives in a world so incredulous…that people like these zealots, can relentlessly tell the filthiest of lies about them…and they cannot even safely come out into the open, to dispute or challenge those filthy lies…When we speak sound truth, we are looked upon as “mentally unsound crackpots”…When they lie, injure and abuse, they are looked upon as “virtuous and saintly”. I cannot even begin to tell you, how completely messed up this is…Up is Down, and Black is White…Everything is wrong in this…Everything… These people and groups are predators…they are social predators, who target vulnerable sexual minorities…They are motivated by fear, ignorance or hate [sometimes money]…commonly all of these. They are never sincerely vetted out, with the truth…nor with sound investigation, for the facts. …We, on the other hand…we commonly get censored, for the completely innocent act of approaching the world in good faith and conscience, and speaking the truth. …At times when seeing those sorts on the television screen…or hearing them on the radio…I often have a mental picture in my mind…of being hog tied, gagged, caged and held prisoner in the dark basements of these “do gooders”…Because that really is a fitting analogy. No…At least on my part…I do not hate, those who combat true child abuse and true sexual violence…Those things are entirely separate, different and distinct, from the phenomena I am addressing here [social predators, exploiting the system from within] …In fact, I am a fervent advocate of combating true violence and true abuse. What has earned my hate, anger and outrage…is these social predators who have come to pick a fight, and who fight absolutely no way but dirty…Their behavior is despicable…It is inhumane…It is mass bullying of the worst kind, by a socially privileged class, against extremely vulnerable minorities. …I ask any thinking, rational and educated mind out there…What emotions and responses, are you to expect this abysmal state of things to evoke out of people like me?… Is it wrong for the abused to point their finger at those who abused them…and say “You are the abuser!…You are the one, who has done wrong!”?… I think the path which is most wrong…is for the abused [be they individuals, or entire demographic groups] to not value and respect themselves enough, to stand up for themselves and confront the abuse and hate they are being assaulted with… The worst path, is to allow the abusers to continue to abuse. This abuse cycle must be broken…even if we can do nothing about our own lives…even if solely to spare future generations of “sexual deviants”, from this same horrible fate. …I try very hard, very sincerely to put aside my own personal injury and anger, over how these injustices have impacted my own life…And I think that I overwhelmingly succeed, most of the time…But I also think that social ignorance, and the severe damage it has widely inflicted upon the people [including us “pedophiles”] must be seen, understood, respectfully acknowledged, corrected and given substantial restitution. This is why I refuse to entirely hide, what all of this has done to me…It is a very hard line to walk…I know I don’t always come off looking or sounding the most well packaged, for public consumption… …At times, I have had to go to very dark, personal places…in order to share some fraction of the intensity…to share the reality, of what society makes me live…My reactions to “your” vitriol and endless abuse, have been one of the central points of the message, at different times. …In case nobody ever caught onto that…there it is…”In Self Defense: The Life and Times of an Atheist BoyLover”…a large collection of my writings, I wrote specifically for the collection itself…Much of it is pleasant and whimsical, or at least steril of emotion…but one thing I could never neglect including, was the anger of injustice…I collected and bottled many personal things, in order to create this work…Because it is supposed to present a [hopefully coherent] panorama, on what it is like being an outcast in this world…and how at least I have tried to understand it…cope with it…explain and justify my own birth, life and existence. This work has been attacked and censored in the past…Some have been incredibly nasty and abusive, in their attacks on both this work and on me… …And I do have a lot of anger, that “this” is what happens when you reach out to the world in sincerity and honesty…just looking for some humanity…and for some common threads with others…searching for others, with the capacity to understand and empathize with you. One final thing… I admittedly don’t have much of anything nice to say, about the people who have visited extremely ugly abuse against me in the past…So, I normally say nothing about them directly, at all… …But, speaking generally… …I think most aggressive and nasty antis, are motivated by a couple of things… 1) They were sexually brutalized personally, and they cannot psychologically get past it…so they project their own experience onto everyone else, and consider their own voice and opinions to be the only ones that matter, or that are valid. 2) For religious reasons, they are indoctrinated with beliefs deeply hostile towards sexual minorities. “Saving the children” and abused children, are slogans and causes under which they can advance an agenda aimed at hurting sexual minorities, who have not attained social protected status. 3) Blind ignorance causes many people to get involved, and commit bad acts. Some people are sincere, and they do have the best of intentions…The problem is, their blind ignorance creates incompetence…and organizations with agendas, which lack an ethically sound grounding in reality. 4) Also of note is the “thrill seekers”, looking to hunt down and attack “the boogeyman”…They want stories to tell their friends, and brag about…They want to be the “macho and valiant hero”, who can re-frame their own abusive, ugly and predatory nature, into some “justified” outlet. I think a lot of [though certainly not all] antis believe they are doing right…I think many of them are honestly exposing their own thought pattern, when they speak…Many sincerely believe, “the end justifies the means”…because they are terrified or angry about what happened to themselves, or “to someone they knew”… …Which is probably one of the single most frustrating things about dealing with them, because they are almost always employing dogmatic tunnel vision…They are ignorant, and they are hostile in their ignorance…Trying to even hold a coherent dialogue with them, is normally impossible. They are the worst people, to even attempt communicating with [unless you entirely agree with the views they have dictated]…and they are the absolute worst people, to be calling the shots…They are not honest to reality…They are not even remotely impartial…I dare say, most of them I’ve seen are incapable of being fair or just…A lot of them cannot even muster up being respectful, to those who disagree with them…Tell them you are a pedophile, and “the fur flies”… I have discounted attempting to approach and reason with antis…because it is akin to beating your head up against a brick wall, and expecting to get something positive out of it…Antis have never been part of my target audience…And I ceased active dialogue with them years ago, because it is useless…People like that simply must be removed from their positions of power, so that balanced and rational people can lead this world towards sanity. In many regards…despite my deep frustration…I feel some degree of compassion and empathy for some antis…because extreme wrong has been done to them, in their own lives…and that is what motivates them…They need to learn, however…that their own continued wrong deeds, do nothing to make the wrong done to them right…They need to learn, not to act out of vengeance and fear…Their own ill deeds, simply create more wrong and suffering in this world…And I implore them to recognize and end the cycle, which they themselves are immersed in. Hate for antis?… …It is not hate that so many of us feel, so much as frustration and extreme fatigue from their behavior…For many of us, the time has come to stop silently tolerating their bad behavior.