IWBL: Hostility Towards Research Etc. (Narrated)…

….	Date: September 30, 2007 This selection from “In Self Defense: The Life and Times of An Atheist BoyLover…Memoirs and Ethos”, has been narrated by Rocco White. Please enjoy the listen, or read along if you like…or need to. * * Question: Why are Child Lovers so hostile and distrusting of the research which is out there? Why are they defensive, when it implies that something might be done to change them, their attractions, or their behavior?…or that they are defective? Answer: “Agenda Science”, is the problem… …It seems to me, there is an atmosphere of distrust, most specifically amongst Child Lovers, because we have been living in a hostile environment, where all to many of the sources which are supposed to be “credible”, are no such thing when addressing people like us. There are to many alternative agendas at play, which are guiding behavior, including that in the field of “research”. We come face to face, time and time again, with these peculiar situations…where “scientific research”, is neither scientific, nor research…but instead, a carefully laid out plot to influence the public at large. Everyone becomes suspect, because…it is so hard to trust anyone, who performs “child sex abuse research”, or “pedophile research”, when entering into this process with a prior existing bias…a deep opinion, as to “how things are”, or “should be”…and that something is already “bad”… We get even more troubled, when finding that there are special interest groups, who have been pushing a social agenda for decades, who also back and support this type of “research”, while attacking, boycotting and censoring others, who do not adhere to their own, unsound standards. “Research” of today, in relation to hot button issues like pedophilia, and child sexuality, are a total mess…they are in disarray, largely do to outside interference by social agendists…and they are suspect from the very beginning, until they can be sifted through, and verified as sound. In laymen terms, that is how I see this issue, in today’s age. — Question: But there is more to it, than that. How do you explain, that Child Lovers are becoming more and more incensed over, and hostile towards, efforts to help change them, so that they can live a “normal” existence? Answer: …An emerging sense of pride?…self worth?…a self realization, that we have every bit as much right to a natural place in this world, and inside of society, as anyone else?… Any one of these things could answer the question. Personally, what I am seeing, is that with the increased access to the internet, far more Child Lovers who were previously isolated, are now able to do their own research, and are finding that things which they previously were content to merely accept as “true” (because “everyone” was saying so), actually are not. It is in that moment of horrible revelation…that it becomes understood…we have been sold the most vicious “bill of goods” imaginable…and we realize that so much of who we are, how we behave, what we think of ourselves, the choices we have made…were based, at least in part, around these false concepts. At best, we lived in self denial all of our lives…or, we self identified as “one of them”, but imagined ourselves to be anomalous…a pedophile who was a good person, but “clearly not the normal pedophile”… When living in isolation, you have nothing but the stereotype, on which to base a conclusion… Even the targets of this stereotype will be influenced and controlled by it, if it is all they are exposed to. …The internet changed this…It broke the silence, and made available, the entire spectrum of what it means to be a Child Lover. It exposed those groups, who designed our stereotype…those who have been lobbying against us…waging a war against us, all these many years… The agenda became exposed, and clear… …They are not trying to understand us…they are not trying to utilize us for societies benefit… …They are trying to take away who we are…important things which make us who we are…They are trying to destroy an entire sub culture… Child Lovers are becoming more and more angered, because we are learning in growing numbers, that we have been duped most of our lives, by social re-constructionists. We are studying our history, and learning our heritage…we are meeting and discussing amongst ourselves, getting to know each other as human beings…We are developing networks, and formulating ideas of how to integrate ourselves into the larger society, in ways which everyone can win. …but, the same old, hostile elements, are trying to break up our groups, and “swat down” any positive emergence that we might make. As I’ve already mentioned, agendas…in “research”, in the media, etc…We Child Lovers are learning about this disgraceful side of politics…and we are becoming more and more, sick to death of it…fed up with it…enough is enough… You find a sharp decrease in tolerance, for “research” and other efforts aimed at, “finding out what is wrong with us”, or trying to change us…because, so many of us today can no longer be controlled with the media, social mind control, or junk science. We, as a growing collective, have found our true selves…We have discovered and established, a sense of goodness, self worth and well being…many reasons to take pride, in our sexual orientation…and many reasons to stand up to tyranny, and fight back…for who we are…for our loved ones…for the very humanity of it all. Any act to change us, or label us as “defective”, is nothing more than just another assault on our culture, as child lovers. More and more Child Lovers are understanding this…and becoming dissatisfied with today’s, “business as usual”. This is why you find more of us fighting back, discrediting the “research”, exposing the hate groups and fear mongers… We are not going away…we are sick of being attacked and having our characters assassinated…This foolishness must stop…There is no other acceptable option. The ignorance, hate and intolerance must come to an end. We are you!…We love children, too!…Get used to it! Attacks against us, and acts trying to kill parts of us off, will be seen as what they are… …acts of aggression and violation…acts of war…	….

Should children have equal rights?

….	Date: September 25, 2007 They really don’t need “equal” rights… …because there are a number of rights, which would not be of value to many of them, anyway. …like, a drivers license for an eight year old…There’s practical reasons, not to go that route. “Equal rights” is not the issue… …equal respect for personal growth, is… …equal respect for experience and experimentation, is… …equal respect for cognitive interpretation, is… They need to be treated as human beings, who can sustain some level of new, unique experience and grow from it… …not wilt from exposure to everything…but, grow from it…	….

The CorporateSexOffenders Fraud…

….	Date: September 25, 2007 This is in reference to the illegal, fraud site created by perverted justice [corporatesexoffenders], claiming to be a “sex offender” registry. This site no longer officially exists, though it has morphed into a few reincarnations over the years. The site, itself, was created as a method of harassment and intimidation by perverted justice. It’s primary targets were those of us who participated at BoyChat, and defended BoyChat by helping rebuff the aggressive onslaught of perverted justice, as they attempted to get us removed from the internet. BoyChat defeated perverted justice’s attacks against us…and perverted justice retaliated, by creating a bogus “sex offender” registry…one which they hosted right along side their main website. They deemed us “corporate sex offenders”, based on the accusation that we “supported child sex abuse”, and similar nonsense…they also pigeonholed any company that would willingly do business with us onto this list, hence the name. This initiative was an obvious smear campaign…a low blow…and an attempt to get us black balled from the internet, by intimidating anyone who would have anything to do with us. …This is the smarmy, disgusting nature of the scumbags behind perverted justice. The following, was a direct response to Ed of BoyChat, following a post he made about the site…I reference a little bit, as to what perverted justice said about myself. The creator of that site… …is very cocky, and full of him/herself… That site is full of rambling speculations, smears and insulting, low blow cut downs…the author seems more out to insult, make fun of, and lie about people, just to get under their skin, than anything else. You’ll also notice, that whomever is responsible for that fraud (they pulled a “sex offender” registry out of their own ass…how much more fraudulent can one get?), lacks the integrity, spine and balls, to even put so much as an identifying nickname (not even a throw away), onto this “project”, of theirs… …Does anybody wonder why?… In true Perverted Justice form…whoever is behind this stunt, is covering their own ass, so they can duck out of sight, and hide under a rock, should they ever get into legal trouble, for pulling this unacceptable crap. Philip likes to hide, too…he’s nowhere to be found, when the court subpoenas arrive… …but then, people like that, who are very cocky and full of themselves, think they don’t have to follow any rules, except their own… Be thankful though, Ed… …at least you weren’t exposed for being supportive and encouraging to other BLs…and writing “BC Nursery Rhymes” (why do the assholes always fixate on these old, whimsical puns, anyway?). I’m a “sex offender” for writing poetry and rhymes…(and a few “wank” stories)… Thankfully, I’ve not received any hate mail at steve_d@goplay.com… …I was really scared about that happening…you know?… 😉 [Note: Goplay went out of business, well over a decade ago…But Perverted Justice and Absolute Zero United members had this e-mail address listed, as my contact info.]	….

The Day I Was “Arrested”…

….	Date: September 14, 2007 I don’t remember it clearly…though, apparently, it “must” have happened. So many have given their statement of authority, after all…the jury has concluded…I was “arrested”… …but, why would I be “arrested”, anyway?…and why at such a young age? …and… …I thought, in order to “arrest” my development, something must have been stopped from occurring… …How can one stop something from developing…when it was already developed?… How do you arrest the development, of something which has already developed?…	….

Madeleine McCann Mother Named as Suspect…

….	Date: September 10, 2007 01) Madeleine mother named as suspect “The mother of missing four-year-old Madeleine McCann has been formally declared a suspect by the Portuguese police, a family spokeswoman has said. The BBC has learnt that the move was linked to bloodstains allegedly found in Kate and Gerry McCann’s hire car. Mrs McCann has arrived for her second police interview in 24 hours. Mr McCann is expected there shortly.” This is not surprising at all… Having been one of the early critics, at how blatantly out of line the news reporting has been, surrounding this story, I’ve said all along…it sounds (and feels) more like they are trying to force a story onto the public, and this behavior of theirs is suspicious. How do you manage to admit that there is absolutely nothing pointing towards an abduction, a pedophiles involvement, or the child sex trade industry…nothing connects any of these elements…and yet, you could not stop the media from brutally forcing the word “pedophile” into their “reports”, around every corner? All they did was bring in “experts”, to talk about “pedophiles”, and “the child sex trade”…and there still continues to remain no discernible connection to any of this. The fact that the media didn’t care, is what was so alarming…they just went ahead and did it… All we still know, is that a child is missing and we don’t know why, or what happened to her. …but, the media went on a spree, giving out cheap shots and black eyes, to the pedosexual community, once again…for no reason…just because they could get away with it. Shame on the media…those people have rotten ethics, who did this. Their integrity is bankrupt. I’ll continue to tread lightly here, as even though I was pointing out, that the parents were likely suspect, even at the beginning of all of this. As time goes by, and nothing else pans out…it generally does come back to the parents, and they get focused on the most intently. I’ve found it suspicious all along, how they’ve structured an unsupported concept (abduction by or for pedophiles, for a child sex trade), and have been just zealously pushing it, and pushing it and pushing it. That is not how investigations and truth finding work…and someone should tell the media, it is not how reporting works, either. It has made me stop and wonder, what the parents themselves are thinking, and what their motives have been, in pushing a baseless theory.	….

Grand Island – Us Annexed…

Date: September 9, 2007

Easter…

Date: September 8, 2007

Easter is a pagan celebration to the “goddess of fertility”. The egg symbolizes fertility, which is why eggs are connected to Easter. Rabbits, I can only speculate here, but I’m thinking it is because they multiply so quickly (are very fertile), that they became a mascot for the celebration. Easter has no historical ties with christianity.

Yule time is secular, hence as an atheist, I see no conflict in taking part in it.

SeXpectations: Is It Not a Good Enough Reason?…

….	Date: September 04, 2007 I am trying to figure out, what it is about sexual relationships, that makes them “important enough”, to validate them… Aren’t there a host of good, solid reasons, why we consider them to be necessary to us? Does there even need to be a reason, outside of loving another person? Is that not good enough? Is that not valid enough? …Is building up another, not worthy enough? What do “you” expect out of your sexual relationships? …Is it mutual touch?…passion?…sexual release?…	….