Date: December 03, 2020
This selection from “In Self Defense: The Life and Times of An Atheist BoyLover…Memoirs and Ethos”, has been narrated by Rocco White. Please enjoy the listen, or read along if you like…or need to.
What on earth is a homosexual pedophile going to have to say about their life, their status and the world around them, that would honestly fill up two decades of their life?…Why express it?…Why say anything at all?…
When I started out, I accepted the social claims and outcomes as they were…I did not question…I had no anger over them, in the bliss of my ignorance…But I had the inner sense that I could help to build some good in this world, despite whatever position I had in it.
I actually thought this world might come to appreciate what selfless “pedophiles” were willing to do, in coming forward and participating in studies with accredited institutions…or in courageously holding a long term public dialogue with the public…Frankly, in opening up the real world of real people who happen to be sexually oriented this way…so that people could begin to see and recognize, the truths versus the fallacies…and come to understand that there is literally no justification in fearing a “pedophile”, solely on the basis of them being a “pedophile”.
I’ve wanted to establish a public openness between “pedophiles” and everybody else…which is why I’ve been adamant about spending so much time, out on the major platforms of the common people.
Fanatics, and all who hold fanatical views against “pedophiles”, aggressively ignore and attack everything they are not expecting or wanting to hear, see or know.
One would think that supporting an organization like B4U-ACT since it’s very beginning, would establish that there are “pedophiles” willing and concerned with cleaning up their own backyard…that we are the literal embodiment, of a solution from within the “pedophile” demographic itself.
…But fanatics, and those with fanaticism in their minds, incredulously attack an organization which exists to literally assist “pedophiles” in maintaining personal psychological stability and social accountability…and they attack all who support such organizations.
They attack those who are best equipped to intervene, should a “pedophile” have a mental breakdown under the social pressure they are forced to live in…the absolute most insane thing they could ever do, if there were any truth to their claims of wanting to “protect children”.
I am fed up with the social and political blood lust, and its saturation absolutely everywhere.
…I am sick of being told I am sub-human and deserve all forms of atrocity inflicted upon me, by people who refuse to even look at me, and judge me for who and what I truthfully am…I am sick of this message being saturated everywhere…consciously and subconsciously…in the organizations you grow up in…in public media…this blood lust is even brazenly celebrated in “entertainment” for the masses.
There is this point that some hated minorities, races, etc, have managed to attain some level of social acceptance, where the masses are allowed to look upon what has happened to these viciously abused groups…see the impact…see the look in their eyes…and internalize that pain, in a type of mental and emotional solidarity…where they finally understand how awful, how unjust a fate has been inflicted upon people who were merely born into a much larger situation, entirely out of their own control.
That point of empathy…is what “pedophiles” are being ultimately denied…Even just striving for that point of empathy…that search for any sign of human decency towards “pedophiles”…is viciously attacked and denied to any who would want it.
After living this many years under these circumstances…the only circumstances I have ever honestly known…I have no rational reason, as to why I have not arrived at the conclusion that this world is simply evil, filled with evil people who relentlessly attack the innocent…because their sense of righteous authority claims they can.
Gays and Lesbians to some extent, have overcome this vicious denial…as have various racial minorities…Large portions of the population understand at the very least, that the hate spewed at these groups is not based in objective fact…but is there to injure the members of those minorities, and keep them in a place where they can be dominated and abused.
…Yet this bare minimum of humane honesty continues to be denied to “pedophiles”…what amounts to the absolute least in standards striven for, by anyone attempting to be honest, just and humane…anyone attempting to strive for integrity, and the better potentials within the human animal.
This is why I seize upon that human empathy and impose it upon the masses…
…because the masses are not just failing to recognize it…there are hoards of fanatics attempting to deny you, me, the world, any ability to recognize and exorcise that empathy.
In personal response…what I have had to say over the last two decades, as a homosexual pedophile…is a little bit about anything, that has ever made me human.